Seoha’s POV

His hands on my body...

They are rough but I like it, I have always liked it.

I like the way he touches me without caring about anything or anyone, like it’s his right to do it to me.

The way he owns me is heaven on earth.

Alpha owns me like no one else was ever meant to touch me, not even Daeshin, or anyone before him.

I gasp as his hand dances over my stomach, cupping the soft mound of my belly, I’m still bloated from my heat and my body is tender.

My alpha’s knot is the best thing that has ever happened to me, the way he took care of me, and then...

My neck hurts...

’Why does my neck hurt?’ I ask myself in my dream, slapping my hand over my neck, over the place he bit me and made me completely his.

"Ah..." I open my mouth and complain, but the pain only goes deeper and the small complain turns into a scream.

"ARGHH!" I scream and my eyes fly open.

I’m pulled out of the dream I was having and out of the safe place I was floating in.

"Stop! Stop it!" I scream and fight, and the smell of milks fills my nose, the back of my head is being held by someone and my nose is pressed into soft neck.

"Please...don’t take me away" I beg against the person’s skin.

I don’t want to leave!

A soft sob from the person holding me follows my begging and I start to cry as well.

It’s Minjae, it’s my Minjae, he’s here with me but alpha isn’t here, why isn’t alpha here?

"Wake up, please" my best friend’s broken voice says and I whimper, forcing myself to come to my senses, to wake up even though my eyes are already open.

Minjae lets out a shuddering sob, hugging me tightly as I keep on whimpering, I keep holding on to him like my life depends on it...and maybe it does.

"Seoha-yah" he calls my name and I wince, the pain in my neck is getting worse, getting insufferable.

"What is hurting you like this? Is it the bite? Who the fuck marked you?" Minjae asks, pulling away to look at the bite on my neck.

He must have taken off the bandage when I was asleep, and he looks so hurt.

"Alpha marked me...uh...uh...yesterday?" I say, completely unaware that this is a new day, it’s a Monday.

"Baby..." Minjae says, face turning sad as he calls me by that title.

"He...alpha marked me...kissed me" I keep talking, I am conscious but have no control over what I’m saying.

My omega is the one speaking and he is hurting us so bad.

"What alpha?" Minjae asks, his own eyes are blue, it’s also his omega that is speaking to me, being furiously protective.

"My alpha...uh...it hurts" I cry, turning my head to the other side, it’s overwhelming me.

"What sort of freak marks an omega and leaves them alone? Doesn’t he know how dangerous a marking is?" Minjae raises his voice and I gasp in pain.

Everything the feels painful, the back of my head, my neck, my chest...my heart.

"Please don’t be mad, I just want alpha" I plead, holding the sleeve of his shirt, just holding on to him.

"I can’t watch you like this, I can’t...that bastard has to put you out of your misery" he says and I shake my head.

There’s too much that Minjae doesn’t know, he doesn’t understand what I’ve done to Taesan, I don’t deserve to ever look at his face again.

It better I keep the last memory I have of him pure, the image of him looking awkward as he asks me to be his.

Why?

Why does my father have to ruin my whole life like this? I can’t find love, I can’t find happiness...

"Minjae...I...I feel like I’m going to die" I start to cry harder.

"No one wants me...I’m...I’m a mess" I sob to him, holding him tighter, and I feel tears dropping on my body, he is also crying.

"Baby, I’ll make it better, I swear..." he says and sniffles.

"Can you sleep? Hmm? Maybe it would feel better if you sleep" Minjae says and I shake my head.

"I can’t sleep...I...I want pills" I say and he breaks our hug, looking at me with pain.

"You don’t need it, I’ll hug you and scent you, I’ll sing you Jaemin’s song" he says and I whimper.

Jaemin.

The omega that’s better than me, the omega that deserves Taesan, the one that birthed Sooin.

How did I lie to myself so much to think I can be a part of his life?

"What is wrong?" Minjae asks, whining softly and nosing at my face, mixing our tears together and I shake my head.

"Don’t want...don’t want Jaemin hyung songs" I manage to stutter.

"Why not? He’s your bias, hmm...do you want to watch a fan cam?" he asks and I sob even louder.

"Jaemin is better than me, alpha deserves Jaemin!" my omega yells and I start to thrash around on the bed, my body moving keeps on its own as I wail helplessly.

The pain feels even more intense at the thought of another omega with my alpha.

"It’s okay, it’s okay...I’m...we’ll not talk about Jaemin anymore, I’ll take care of you" my best friend says softly.

We lay in bed together and lay side by side, he presses my face into his neck, flooding me with comforting omega pheromones.

The smell of a mother...my mother...

’Mom killed alpha’s mom’ my omega mourns and I squeeze my eyes shut, forcing sleep to come to me.

When I sleep, it will shut up, the pain and the guilt.

"I’ll...I’ll sleep...I’ll meet alpha in my dream" I say, keeping myself from wailing the way my omega is doing.

"That’s right...sleep" I hear my friend say, but I can’t respond, I’m already floating somewhere...going away from here.

"Seo-ya, what is alpha’s name, hmm?" Minjae asks and I open my mouth.

I don’t know if I respond properly, but I say something, I have given an answer before I can stop myself.

Junho’s POV

"WHERE IS HE?" I hear a loud shout that forces me out of my thoughts.

The voice sound too familiar to ignore, too angry to look away and act like I didn’t hear, what the hell is a pregnant omega doing here?

"Where the hell is that bastard, huh?" Minjae’s voice says and I rush out of the office.

The man is holding a baseball bat and his face is completely red with anger.

He swings the bat carelessly around to threaten the people trying to stop him.

He’s dressed in a pink pajamas like outfit, and his hair is held back by a pink headband.

The cloth shows a bit of his pregnancy, which might be the reason no one is rough handling him.

Damn, he will hurt himself if he keeps acting like this.

"Minjae-ssi" I call his name loudly and he pauses to find where the voice is coming from.

"You, you’re in on this too? I should have known you were fucked from the first day!" he yells and comes at me with the bat.

I don’t move out of the way, I let him hit me with it, hitting my arm and I don’t flinch because I’ve been hurt with worse.

"My friend is struggling! Do you understand, show me where the fuck that bastard is!" Minjae says and hits me again.

"Please calm down" I say softly and he grabs my collars.

He has to stand on his tip toe to do it, but I let him, I let him express his frustration on me...it’s the same way I want to express my frustrations on Taesan.

If only he isn’t acting like a dead man in a living body.

"Please, calm down? CALM DOWN? Do you understand the repercussion of marking an omega and staying away from them?" he asks and I shut my eyes.

I know. I fucking know what it can cause.

"Minjae...just..." I start and he pushes past me.

"Minjae, hell..." I call after him but he goes into the elevator, "I’ll find him myself" he says and I just let him win.

"What are you looking at? Get busy" I growl at everyone who witnessed this.

They scatter and scramble away while I grab my hair, I need to follow him, make sure Taesan doesn’t hurt him.

I take the other elevator, practicing my breathing as it goes up.

Too many messes, too much is happening at the same time.

When I get to my destination, I find Minjae threatening someone to find Taesan’s office for him, and one of the guard already grabbed him aggressively.

"Let him go" I order the guard.

"Fuck you" Minjae hisses at the person and goes directly for Taesan’s door with me walking behind him.

"This is it, right?" he ask before pushing asides the guards, the guards don’t react to him aggressively due to the look I give them.

"Now you motherfucker, I’m here for you" Minjae yells as soon as he breaks into the office, holding his bat up.