I'm Not Your Husband, You Evil Dragon!
Chapter 168: The Queen Who Ran
"Yes, my queen," Isvarn said, his voice steady as stone. "You did."
Erza froze.
The world around her seemed to pause, the morning light, the dust motes floating in the air, the faint hum of the refrigerator. Everything stopped, held in suspension, waiting for her to speak.
"What did you say?" Her voice was barely a whisper, stripped of its usual cold authority. She stared at her grandfather as if seeing him for the first time, as if he had just confessed a betrayal she could not process. "Are you serious?"
She wanted him to say no.
She wanted him to laugh, to tell her it was a joke, to explain that she had misunderstood, that the nightmare trial had nothing to do with her. She wanted him to lie.
Isvarn did not lie.
"My queen, this is the truth." He held her gaze, unblinking. "You are the one who caused this. Your magic. Your power. Your presence in his mind. The Zani you used, it opened something inside him. A door that should have stayed closed."
Erza’s eyes widened. Her hands, still resting on her knees, began to tremble. "That’s not possible. I didn’t do anything to him. I saved him. I sealed his memories. I protected him."
"You used Zani,My queen." Isvarn said, each word falling like a hammer blow. "The moment you reached into his mind with that power, you caused him extreme pain and agony. The seal you placed, it was necessary, but it came at a cost. Now, staying with you make him suffer more. His mind has been fighting to process what you did ever since."
"No." Erza shook her head, her silver hair swaying across her face. "That’s a lie. You’re lying."
But even as she spoke, the memory surfaced. She saw herself in the chamber, her hands glowing with the forbidden power, reaching into Yuuta’s mind to erase the suffering he had endured. She saw his body arch off the table. She heard his silent scream. She felt the recoil of his soul, the way it had tried to push her out, the way it had failed.
She knew the truth.
But she did not want to be guilty.
She could not bear the weight of having harmed the man she loved, the man she had sworn to protect, the man who had already suffered more than any being should endure.
She opened her mouth to defend herself, to find words that would make this not her fault.
But before she do,
Yuuta Jolt woke up.
His eyes snapped open.
His body jerked, a violent, full-body spasm that nearly threw him off the sofa.
His chest heaved as he sucked in air, a deep, gasping breath that sounded like a drowning man breaking the surface of the water after far too long beneath the dark.
"No," he gasped, his voice raw and terrified. "No, please. Don’t touch me."
Erza’s heart leaped.
She had been waiting for this moment, waiting to see his eyes open, waiting to hold him, waiting to feel his arms around her and pretend that everything was going to be all right.
She leaned forward, reaching for him, her arms opening to embrace him.
But Yuuta’s eyes were not settled.
The light of the apartment, the soft morning glow, the familiar shadows, the walls he had known for years, did not register in his gaze.
He was still in the nightmare, or the nightmare was still in him, clinging to his mind like cobwebs that could not be brushed away.
He saw Erza’s silver hair, her pale skin, her violet eyes, and his mind twisted the image into something else.
The weeping woman. The entity. Death.
He screamed.
The sound was sharp and sudden, a blade of terror cutting through the quiet apartment. He shoved himself backward, pressing his head into the pillow, his hands raised as if to ward off a killing blow. "Forgive me," he sobbed, his voice cracking, his body trembling uncontrollably. "Forgive me. Don’t touch me. Please. Don’t take my soul. I want to go back. I don’t want to be like them."
Elena stopped playing.
Her small hands froze above her wooden blocks.
Her red eyes, so like her father’s, fixed on the sofa where Yuuta thrashed and begged and seemed to come apart at the seams.
She did not understand what was happening, could not understand, but she saw her father’s fear, heard his screams, felt the terror radiating from him like heat from a fire that would not stop burning.
"Papa?" Her voice was small, uncertain, the voice of a child who had never seen her father afraid and did not know how to process the sight.
Isvarn moved quickly.
His ancient hand covered Elena’s eyes, blocking the sight of her father’s collapse, his fingers gentle but firm against her small face.
"Do not look, little princess," he murmured, his voice soft despite the coldness that lingered in his heart. "Your father is unwell. He will be well again soon."
He looked at Erza, his eyes hard.
"Remove his memory, my queen. The nightmare has damaged his mind. He will not recover on his own."
Fiona knelt beside the sofa, her bandaged hands reaching for Yuuta’s shoulders, trying to steady him, trying to ground him in the real world, trying to pull him back from whatever dark place still held him captive.
"Yuuta," she said, her voice calm despite her own exhaustion, her own fear, her own trembling hands. "Yuuta, look at me. You’re safe. You’re home. No one is going to hurt you."
Yuuta looked at her.
And saw a shadow.
The same faceless figures from the nightmare, tendrils curling, eyeless faces tracking his every move, bodies composed of darkness and hunger, superimposed themselves over Fiona’s features. He did not see her hazel eyes or her concerned expression or the exhaustion etched into every line of her face. He saw a monster waiting to drag him back to the ocean of blood and tears.
"Don’t touch me," he whimpered, shrinking away from her hands, pressing himself deeper into the sofa cushions. "I’m sorry... I lived. It wasn’t my fault. Please... just leave me alone."
Erza moved.
There was no hesitation now, no doubt, no desperate need to assign blame or defend herself. She placed her hand gently on Yuuta’s forehead, her fingers cool against his sweat-slick skin. Her violet eyes softened, losing their sharpness, their coldness, their queenly distance.
For a moment, she was not the Blade of Atlantis. She was simply a woman trying to save the man she loved.
"Somna Lux," she whispered.
The spell flowed from her palm into his mind, gentle, precise, careful. She did not touch the sealed memories. She did not disturb the Goddess’s work. She did not risk cracking the golden wheel or waking the seven orbs that slept within his chest. She reached only for the last hour, the nightmare, the terror, the images that had twisted his perception and made him see enemies in the faces of those who loved him.
Yuuta’s eyes grew heavy.
His thrashing slowed, then stopped.
His breath, which had been ragged and desperate, deepened into the slow, steady rhythm of natural sleep.
His face relaxed.
The tension in his jaw eased.
The furrow in his brow smoothed.
He was calm now.
This was not the sleep of the sealed, not the unconsciousness of the cursed. This was rest. True rest. The kind of sleep that came after a long illness, after a narrow escape, after standing at the edge of the abyss and being pulled back at the very last moment.
Fiona watched Yuuta’s face soften.
Watched the fear drain away, replaced by peace. Watched his chest rise and fall with the easy rhythm of someone who was not fighting, not fleeing, not drowning. She watched Erza’s hand linger on his forehead, watched the queen’s expression shift from cold authority to something rawer, something more vulnerable, something that looked almost like grief.
Then she looked at Erza.
Her gaze was not respectful. It was not grateful. It was not fearful, despite everything she had witnessed and experienced in this apartment. It was accusing, steady and unwavering, the look of someone who had known the truth all along and was waiting for the guilty party to confess.
Erza felt the weight of that gaze.
She looked at Fiona.
The human woman knelt on the floor, her bandaged hands resting on her knees, her hazel eyes fixed on Erza with an expression that needed no words. Accusation. Judgment. You did this. You caused this. He suffered because of you.
Erza’s first instinct was rage.
She was a queen after all. She was a dragon. She had killed for less than the look Fiona was giving her. Her hand twitched, her claws threatening to extend.
But she did not move.
She could not.
Love for Yuuta had made her vulnerable. It had stripped away the armor she had worn for centuries, the cold indifference that had protected her from pain. She could not kill the woman who had saved him. She could not rage against the truth that sat before her, undeniable and absolute.
"I didn’t do anything," she said to Fiona.
Fiona did not answer. She simply watched, silent, her hazel eyes holding Erza’s violet ones.
Isvarn’s voice drifted across the room, quiet but final.
"I told you, my queen."
Erza looked at Isvarn.
Then at Fiona.
Then back at Isvarn.
For the first time in centuries, she felt the weight of another’s gaze, not as a challenge to be crushed, but as something that pierced straight through her armor and lodged deep in her chest. The look on their faces, Fiona’s exhausted accusation, Isvarn’s cold disappointment, made something twist inside her.
Something she had not felt since she was a hatchling, small and weak and rejected.
Guilt.
The feeling was foreign, almost unrecognizable. She had inflicted pain before, countless times, on countless enemies. She had watched armies burn and cities fall. She had never once felt guilt.
But now, standing over Yuuta’s sleeping form, his face still pale from the nightmare she had caused, the feeling wrapped around her heart like invisible chains. An arrow she could not see, could not block, could not pull out.
The looks she used to ignore, the fear, the hatred, the judgment of those beneath her, had become unbearable.
Fiona’s voice echoed in her skull. What did you do to him? Isvarn’s explanation replayed on a loop. You are the one who caused this.
And then Elena spoke.
Her small voice trembled, carried across the room like a blade wrapped in silk. "Mama hurt Papa?" Elena’s red eyes, so like Yuuta’s, were wide and wet. "Is that lie, right? Mama didn’t hurt Papa. Tell Elena it’s lie."
Hurt.
The word echoed through Erza’s mind, bouncing off the walls of her skull, growing louder with each repetition.
She had hurt him.
Again.
After everything she had done to save him, to protect him, to seal away his suffering, she had only added to it. Her love, her power, her desperate need to keep him safe, it had all become another wound in his flesh, another scar on his soul.
Her heart pounded.
Not with rage.
Not with the cold fury she had wielded like a weapon for centuries.
Something else. Something that pressed against her ribs, squeezed her lungs, made it hard to breathe. Frustration. Shame. A nameless emotion she had no tool to fight.
She ran.
Her body moved before her mind could catch up.
She turned from the sofa, from Yuuta, from the eyes that watched her with accusation and disappointment and innocent confusion. She crossed the room in three strides, out of the living room, through the doorway, into the hallway beyond.
The door slammed behind her.
Fiona blinked in confusion before quickly rising to her feet. "Wait," she said hurriedly. "Wait a second."
But Erza was already gone.
It was the first time Fiona had ever seen that arrogant woman, the merciless monster who killed without hesitation, act so painfully human. Fiona had never truly known Erza, had never spent time with her to understand her, yet as she watched her leave, an uncomfortable ache rose in her chest.
For the first time, Erza did not look like a monster.
She looked like someone who was hurting.
Isvarn watched the door close.
His ancient hand, still holding the wooden block, tightened. The block cracked, splintered, then crumbled to dust between his fingers. The pieces fell to the floor like snow, like ash, like the remains of a castle that had stood for millennia and crumbled in a single moment.
The ruler of Atlantis. The most powerful being in existence. The woman who had once frozen an entire continent and displayed such overwhelming power that even gods were forced to retreat back to their own realms.
That was the kind of existence Erza was.
When her name became involved, even divine beings stepped back in caution.
But now, she had run away like a coward. Like a child. Like a wife who had been accused of hurting her husband and could not bear to face the truth. She could not even hold eye contact with a human and her own counselor. She had fled like a pathetic woman.
Isvarn’s jaw tightened. The air around him seemed to compress, the temperature dropping, the light dimming. The dust from the crushed block swirled at his feet.
Fiona saw the shift, felt the pressure of his presence, the weight of his centuries, the danger of remaining in the same room as a creature who could crush her without effort. She rose from the floor, her legs unsteady, and moved toward the door.
She did not want to follow Erza.
Every instinct told her to stay, to watch over Yuuta, to ensure the nightmare did not return. But something else pulled her, the memory of her own guilt, her own accusations, her own moments of being consumed by overwhelming emotion. She knew how it felt to be a woman accused, to carry a weight that could not be justified or explained away.
And besides, she was afraid to remain in the same room as Erza’s grandfather. The old man’s strength radiated from him like heat from a furnace, and she had seen enough to know that he was every bit as dangerous as the silver-haired witch.
She stepped into the hallway and closed the door behind her.
The room fell silent.
Only Yuuta remained, sleeping on the sofa, his chest rising and falling with slow, even breaths. The morning light painted gold across his face, softening the lines of exhaustion, making him look younger than his years.
Isvarn stood alone among the scattered blocks, the dust of crushed wood still settling at his feet. His violet eyes, ancient and cold, fixed on the sleeping human.
He was having difficulty understanding what he had just witnessed.
The cold, ruthless ruler he had served for centuries, the queen who had never hesitated, never doubted, never shown weakness, had been consumed by something he could not name.
She was becoming human.
Soft.
Vulnerable.
And soon, if this continued, she would act like one. She would forget the dragon way. She would forget that love was a weakness, that mercy was a flaw, that the strong survived by crushing the weak beneath their heels.
All because of him.
Isvarn’s gaze settled on Yuuta’s face, and his thoughts darkened.
He wanted the mortal dead.
He had wanted it since the moment he learned of Erza’s attachment. But he had held back, restrained himself, trusted that his queen would come to her senses.
Now he was not so sure.
The question gnawed at him, persistent and unanswered: Why had Erza changed? She had been the same for centuries, cold, ruthless, undefeatable. No enemy had ever made her flinch. No loss had ever made her weep. And then she had met this human, and something inside her had cracked.
He rose from the floor.
His body unfolded like a mountain rising from mist, climbing to its full height. Seven feet of ancient muscle and power, built like a tank, his presence filling the small apartment until the walls seemed to press outward. His silver hair caught the morning light. His violet eyes, cold and absolute, fixed on the sleeping mortal before him.
He raised his hand and placed a sleeping spell on Elena.
The child, who had been watching with wide, frightened eyes, slumped against the wall. Her small body folded gently onto the cushions Isvarn had arranged, her breathing deepening, her face relaxing into the peaceful expression of someone who would not wake until he allowed it.
He had made a promise with her. He had sworn to not harm Yuuta. He had not broken that promise until now.
He walked toward Yuuta, each step heavy on the wooden floor, his shadow falling across the sleeping man’s face.
He was ready to break his promise to his queen. Ready to swallow his pride. Ready to stain the history of Atlantis forever with the blood of a mortal who had done nothing wrong except love a dragon.
He had already seen enough.
This pathetic, weak human had not only made his queen weak, he had made her almost human. The cold, ruthless, undefeatable ruler of Atlantis was gone. In her place stood a woman who ran from accusations, who wept over a mortal’s suffering, who had forgotten the dragon way.
Isvarn knew the truth.
Even if Erza agreed to leave Yuuta, the damage was already done. The more time she spent on Earth, the more she would change. And even if she returned to Atlantis, she would be the weak queen now. Or worse, she would open the portal again, again and again, sneaking through the barriers between worlds to steal moments with the man she should have forgotten and eventually fall in grief.
He was standing over Yuuta now, towering above the mortal who had just recovered from a nightmare and fallen into true, peaceful sleep. Yuuta’s face was calm, unguarded, unaware of the death hovering above him.
Isvarn raised his hand.
His dragon claws extended, curved blades of white bone, centuries old, stained with the blood of enemies who had challenged the throne of Atlantis. They gleamed in the morning light, sharp enough to cut through steel, long enough to pierce through flesh and bone and heart.
He looked at the mortal’s peaceful face. At the dark hair spread across the pillow. At the red eyes closed in sleep. At the ring on his finger, the Ring, cracked and scarred.
He did not care about the unkown ring. He did not care about love or bonds or the will of primal dragons. He cared about his queen. He cared about the throne. He cared about the kingdom he had served for millennia.
He lifted his hand higher, ready to end this pathetic life, ready to end the weakness that had infected his queen, ready to stain his soul with the blood of an innocent.
His hand fell.
To be continued.