The girl who yearned so much for love, often had fingers pointed her way. They float aimlessly in the sky- the intentions she had always stay hidden away.

The boy at first never wanted to be with her, even since that girl was born, being an older sibling... it was so tiring, sharing everything and affection. That boy disliked that concept.

However, seeing the eyes, the toothless smile, the small hand trying to reach him as he looked into the crib. That boy smiled and touched her tiny finger. Since then, that boy always became someone ideal so that he could always be seen as having no flaws.

He wasn’t a genius or anything. He just purely learned quickly. Maybe his brain was already smart from birth, but for a little boy, the only thing he want was the desire to be praised.

That boy always thought weakness was unknown to him.

But, everything changed so fast in life. That little baby girl turned into a teenager now, and the boy is also a teenager. Maybe because of teenage feelings or something, their relationship became quite distant.

That flawless big brother didn’t understand what his sister thought about him, and yet, his sister seemed to always notice what he himself didn’t notice from the start.

That big brother always thought when he saw his sister sad, angry at him for no reason and pulling away. Human feelings are complicated.

⌈If you’re looking for something you dropped, then it is right here, sister.⌋

He always wanted to say that when he saw that girl keep on with that solemn face; and there he is, a big brother who doesn’t understand the reason why she made that kind of face.

Thinking back on what went wrong, that big brother always believed everything had clearly been his fault. But He could never say the words he wanted to say:

⌈That I have Always, Always been thinking about you⌋

That boy’s thoughts buried under countless "Why"s, he felt unsatisfied with questions he could never find answers to on his own. That emotional turmoil grew louder day by day, until finally he said something as a white flag surrender.

⌈I realize, but I can’t do anything.⌋

That day, that boy couldn’t even remember what he ate. Same with his sadness and happiness, everything was like a broken cassette.

If he could start everything from the ’beginning’. That boy would choose not to do it again, why should he do the same thing only for an answer that wouldn’t change from that girl he cared about.

But... why do you keep staring at me with that gloomy face that makes tears start falling from my eyes.

That day, when that girl threw an important item that held memories of their closeness into the river, that boy instinctively jumped to reach that small item, even though he knew he wasn’t good at swimming.

Searching too long between the rocks, he grabbed it but his vision got blurry. Dying from lack of air. It would be really funny if he drowned.

That boy looked at his sister’s keychain for the last time, he smiled as his vision started to blur. There was one regret perhaps that he felt.

That boy wanted to change everything, all the words he had hidden all this time into words he could give back to his beloved sister.

In the end, those eyes closed and buried all the things he wanted to say forever.

That boy’s little sister, Risa Clove, might think that her brother was a person too perfect without flaws. Everyone would compare her to him, her brother was great but she wasn’t.

Everything is half true, because deep down, Risa really didn’t hate Kai. How could an admirer hate the person who is their role model.

Pride and ego were the cause, so when her brother started approaching her again, her heart truly blossomed. However, inside her heart it was like saying that the current ’Kai’ wasn’t her brother. Risa occasionally noticed that difference but she ignored it.

Because Risa was afraid her brother would disappear again.

✩₊˚.⋆ (º﹃º) ⋆.˚₊✩

"So... if the person in front of you right now is not ’your brother,’ what would you do?"

"If you aren’t my brother... I want my real big brother back again."

Their eyes met, as if everything stopped at one crucial point. A point that would affect their relationship going forward. For better or worse,

"Kai" sighed, thinking he couldn’t possibly be a liar if he had already asked a question like that and Risa’s answer was like that.

I want my real big brother back again.

He was not Risa Clove’s real brother even though he had considered Risa his sister since he had started thinking about making amends with his perspective.

⌈If you’re going out, get me some pudding and ice cream. Three puddings and one box of ice cream.⌋

Kai heard the voice "Mimi" that he remembered before they parted, as he looked at Risa again. Who would have thought, her request was the last words before they parted.

If Mimi were here... maybe she would be very jealous seeing me have another little sister.

Kai then raised his hand, putting his palm on top of her head, stroking her head softly like petting a cat.

"Sorry... your real ’brother’ will never be able to come back."

"..."

"I am not the ’Kai’ you know." Kai stopped his hand and moved it away from Risa. "I, the current me, honestly am more pathetic than your brother."

Kai smiled bitterly, his eyes looking down with his head bowed. "I can’t have to act perfect, be an ideal older brother. Not allowed to show weakness, but that is my weakness" Kai chuckled, laughing at himself. "I really am pathetic, not like your brother."

Lifting his head, Kai smiled. He felt free, looking into Risa’s eyes that were watching and listening to him.

"However, I still feel like an older brother. When I see you turn your body away every time we meet and not talk to me. I feel very sad."

Risa walked closer and hugged Kai, her hug was very tight as if she didn’t leave any gap for wind to get through.

"Do you remember that night when we first made up, I asked ’What do you think of me...’ do you still remember the answer you gave me?"

"In my mind, you’re my beloved little sister." Kai said that sentence clearly, no stutter or broken words came out of his mouth.

"You know... if you were ’big brother’, you would definitely answer ’You are everything to me,’ my brother would definitely say that." Risa lifted her head and smiled wryly. "You’re not my brother hahaha..."

"You’re disappointed." Kai asked and stroked Risa’s head again, Risa nuzzling more under the stroke of Kai’s palm. "Do you want to know who ’I’ am..."

Risa shook her head, her hug tightened. She trapped Kai to stay there.

"Sometimes the truth is better kept... Besides, it seems you also have heavy problems and many secrets you keep in your mind."

"..."

"May I say something for my ’big brother’? I want you to listen."

"Hmm." Kai nodded with a smile. "Of course..."

"Maybe first is sorry. Forgive me for trying to distance myself from you... I really regret throwing that keychain into the river. Then..." Risa released her hug and raised both her palms to pat Kai’s cheeks, holding it to cup his face, she smiled very sweetly.

"Don’t make fake smiles. I always like your true self. If you feel annoyed, let’s eat something salty. I don’t like a big brother who always hides what he means, so when you don’t want to admit it to others, you can admit it to me. When you feel annoyed, sleep. On rainy days, rest yourself. If you get wet, I’ll dry you. If you need a reason, come to me no matter who you are and even if we both change in the days to come someday, I will always be by your side... because I am YOUR LITTLE SISTER."

Ah... So you can make a face like that.

Kai hugged her, and Risa hugged him back. Their hearts beat fast in the same rhythm. Resonating as if their souls understood each other.

"Even though you’re not the old ’Kai’, I will still call you big brother... you know that, dummy big brother..."

"Hahahaha~ yeah yeah yeah... whatever you say, stupid little sister..."

The siblings laughed in this city that was beginning to dusk and in the end they went home with their hands tightly holding each other.

As brother and sister, the two of them truly would not be apart from now on. That certainly made the face of the person watching them from afar not smile.

"Ren~ help me carry the groceries."

Ren turned to the young woman who was carrying many shopping bags, a lot of them in her hands. Sighing, he took some shopping bags from that woman’s hands.

"Ehh~ What did you see just now..."

"Nothing important."

"Hmm... you’re jealous of my Ryan, want me to help it just say the cute password I’ll do it~"

Ren stopped his steps, his eyes sharpened looking into the eyes behind that woman’s glasses. "I don’t need your help, Reva... but honestly you really brought an interesting person."

"Ryan is indeed interesting~ maybe I’ll bring Mimi here too, Heheh I miss that girl who talk about her ’husbando,’ what do you think, about adding another person... she could be a new ’capture target’, you know that~"

"..."

"Ehe~ you don’t like that idea. Mimi is a pretty girl, you know, and she’s good at cooking and-"

"Not that... adding outsiders is still less relevant."

"Huff... you’re less interesting, not like my beloved Ryan."

These two people then left following the city that was turning into night. Who knows what will happen in the future. There is no certain ’route’ from now on.