The CEO's Regret: You made me your lie, I become your Loss
Chapter 174: You can make fun of me later
"You should go lie down." He didn’t look at Amira. Didn’t acknowledge her.
He simply guided Amara away. Out of that space. Out of that tension. "I’m really sorry about all of this," he murmured as they walked, his voice low, meant only for her. "You can stay here. No one will come."
They stopped in front of a door. Julian pushed it open gently. The room inside was... different. Quieter. Personal. Safe. "Is this your room?" Amara asked softly, glancing around as she stepped inside. There was something about it. Something untouched by the cold politics outside.
Julian gave a small nod. "Yes... Well, it used to be." A flicker of something crossed his face. Memory.
Distance. "I’ll have them bring you something," he added. "But you should rest." He stepped closer, brushing a soft kiss against her forehead. Lingering for just a second. Then he left. Closing the door quietly behind him. For the first time since arriving. Amara exhaled fully.
The room wrapped around her in a strange kind of calm. Not home. But close enough.
She moved slowly, her fingers brushing against surfaces as she walked, taking in small details, traces of who Julian had been before all of this. A shelf. A desk. A window that let in just enough light.
Then. Something caught her attention. An album. Set aside, almost carelessly. Curious, she picked it up and sat down, flipping it open. And then. She stilled.
Page after page. Photos. Of her. Her college days. Laughing. Arguing. Smiling. Moments she didn’t even know had been captured. Moments she had forgotten. Her lips parted slightly in surprise. 𝘧𝓇ℯℯ𝑤ℯ𝘣𝓃ℴ𝓋𝑒𝑙.𝑐𝘰𝑚
Then...Slowly. A smile formed. Soft. Real. Because in a house full of expectations, pressure, and hidden agendas. This...This was something simple. Something honest. Proof that before all the titles... Before the chaos... Before the secrets. There had just been them.
The room fell quiet again after the door opened. Only the soft clink of ceramic broke the silence as Julian walked back in carrying a small tray of sliced fruit. Apples. Grapes. A few strawberries were arranged too neatly, like he had spent extra time making them look perfect, just so he would not have to think about anything else.
He moved slowly toward the bed, careful with every step. Too careful. Like if he focused hard enough on not spilling the juice, maybe the rest of his life would stop falling apart, too.
Amara watched him quietly, putting the album away. He still had not looked at her. His shoulders were stiff, drawn tight near his ears, and the tension in his body was impossible to miss. Even from where she sat, she could see the slight tremble in his fingers around the tray.
Julian Vale always looked composed. Always calm. Always in control. But not tonight. Tonight, he looked like a man barely holding himself together.
He placed the tray gently on the bedside table. The glass rattled softly against the wood. His hand lingered there for a second longer than necessary, almost like he needed something solid to steady himself.
Then finally, slowly, he looked up at her. His eyes were red. Not from crying. Julian was not the kind of man who cried easily. But from holding too much in for too long.
"Oh my God," he whispered. The words came out rough and uneven, as they hurt on the way out. He swallowed hard before speaking again.
"I never..." His voice cracked slightly, and he looked away for half a second, ashamed of it. "I never wanted you to see that, Amara." The pain in his voice wrapped around the room so tightly it became hard to breathe.
Amara’s chest tightened. For a moment, neither of them spoke. The silence between them was no longer cold. It was heavy. Fragile. The kind of silence where one wrong word could break something neither of them knew how to fix.
Julian let out a weak laugh under his breath, but there was no humor in it. "I must look pathetic keeping photos of you."
"No," Amara said softly. Her answer came too quickly. Because he didn’t. That was the problem. He looked human. And somehow that hurt more.
Julian rubbed a hand over his face, exhausted. "I tried to keep it away from you." His eyes drifted toward the floor. "All of this. The mess. The anger. My family." He paused before adding quietly, "My mother."
At the mention of her, something dark passed through his expression. Gone in a second. But Amara saw it. She always saw the things Julian tried hardest to hide.
"You don’t have to protect me from everything," she murmured. His jaw tightened instantly. "Yes," he said, almost stubbornly. "I do." The words settled deep inside her chest.
Not because they sounded controlling. But because he meant them. Completely. Julian finally sat down on the chair beside the bed, leaning forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees. For the first time in what felt like forever, he looked tired enough to collapse.
"I hate that my uncle and aunt spoke to you that way," he admitted quietly. "I hate even more that they question you about our baby." Amara stared at him. Because that was what haunted him? Not the cruel words. Not the humiliation. But the fact that she had witnessed it.
Her heart ached suddenly. "Julian..." she started gently. But he shook his head before she could continue.
"You don’t understand." He laughed softly again, bitter this time. "My whole life has been built on being the invincible one. The irresponsible one. The spare." His eyes lifted to hers slowly. "And tonight, for the first time, I felt like I was fifteen again."
The confession hit harder than shouting ever could. Amara could almost see it now. A younger Julian stood silently while everyone around him decided who he should be. What he should tolerate. What he should sacrifice.
And somehow, he had grown into a man so gentle that people forgot gentleness often came from surviving pain quietly. Her throat tightened. "You are not weak for hurting," she said softly.
Julian looked at her for a long moment after that. Really looked at her. And something in his expression almost broke her completely. Because beneath all his control... beneath the perfect manners and steady voice...
He looked relieved. Like nobody had ever said that to him before. Amara’s breath caught quietly in her throat. Our baby. Even now, with his entire world cracking apart around him, that was where his mind went first. Not himself. Not his pride. Not the humiliation waiting outside that bedroom door.
Her. Their child. The realization settled so deeply inside her chest that it almost hurt.
She looked at him carefully, really looked at him, and suddenly everything became painfully clear. The shouting downstairs. The ugly truths are thrown around like weapons. The tension wrapped around this family so tightly that it could barely breathe anymore.
None of it had changed the way he loved her. Not even a little. Julian loved her quietly. In the way he checked if she had eaten. In the way he always stood slightly closer when she was tired.
In the way he carried everyone else’s pain without ever speaking about his own. And somehow, she had only fully understood it now. Her eyes softened as she held his hand tighter.
Julian tried to pull himself together again, forcing a weak smile onto his face. It looked fragile. Like it might shatter if either of them breathed too hard.
"Here," he said, gesturing toward the tray with his free hand. "You should eat something." His voice was steadier now, but only barely.
"You can make fun of me later, okay?" he added softly. "When we’re finally home."