Chapter 275: Yeon’s story 16: permission to love

Yeon’s POV

I learned how to use shotgun properly, if I will protect people, at least I should do it right.

I will be officially made Lord in two weeks time. So many preparations are going on and it makes me miss your presence.

Is it okay to say that?

Imagine a world where even when I’m far from you, I can still see your face and hear your voice, not like a picture, but like a video, like a on a phone call.

I’m blabbering again. I always blabber when it’s you. How does anyone even blabber on paper? It’s the Yeon effect.

Bye Yeon-ssi, I’ll see you soon, I promise.

Yours truly, tall boy.

I laugh and fold the letter, it’s two weeks old already, but I’ve been reading it over and over again.

By now, I’m sure I can say the letter word for word without looking at the paper.

I can hear his deep voice reading it to me, and I can imagine him sighing repeatedly, that habit of his.

Whoever he ends up with should better prepare to see it in their son...

As much as I would like to pretend...I think I have feelings for the Hwang boy, and the more I see him beyond the name he bears, the more I like him.

"Yeon, don’t think silly thoughts" I groan and turn to my back on the bed.

Hanuel had to travel back to his family territory for two months now, he has to prepare and train harder to be the Lord Hwang that makes a difference.

We talk over paper, writing to him feels like writing a diary, and his now mom knows about me.

We haven’t addressed it, but we attraction between us is clear.

My omega likes and trusts him, but still, meeting his clan would be a difficult thing for me.

The ceiling fan is rolling so slowly today and the weather is uncomfortably hot.

Two month have passed since I got free from the lab and so much has changed for me in the little time.

I feel more confident in my skin, knowing that I can defend myself, this is one of the good things...but one of the bad parts is Jisung’s behavior towards me.

We can’t stay home alone with each other anymore, he doesn’t look at me, and doesn’t talk to me either.

He still does everything for me, he makes sure my bath water is warm, my food is ready, my things are neat...but I miss my Jisung.

"Jisung" I call, getting out of bed and going to look for him.

We’re sorting this out today or never.

"Yah, Jisung" I call and I hear his tired sigh.

He’s sitting alone on the patio, he has no friends...he’s still my socially awkward Jisung, just...different.

He’s bigger, rugged and hot tempered...but my little Jisung.

"I’m here, hyung" he responds in an almost robotic voice without looking up.

"What are you doing?" I ask before sitting next to him, it hurts that he moves away from me, putting a small distance between us.

"I’m busy" he says and I see the bullet in his hand.

He has been learning firearms a lot these days, he has been bringing them home and learning how to load the bullets quickly.

"You really hate me, don’t you?" I ask and he doesn’t answer.

"I can’t keep living like a ghost around you, Jisung, you know you mean the world to me" I say.

"I don’t hate you hyung, I just don’t know what to do with you" he says and shrugs, the action is small, but says a lot.

He shrugs when he’s wanting to avoid a topic.

"Then look at me, yell at me...anything" I say and he chuckles, the sound is weak and forced.

It’s sad that has to force a laugh with me.

"I can’t do that, I can’t yell at you for not loving me back, your heart is yours" my dear friend says and my shoulders fall.

"I’d hate it if you hate me" I whisper and he looks at me for the first time.

His eyes are wet with tears.

"I can never hate you, you’re my first love...you’re my only love" he drops his eyes from my face and I wipe my tears with the back of my hand.

"I’m sorry" I whisper and he lifts his head again, this time he’s wearing a smile.

The smile is fake also, fake and weak, but he hold it for my sake.

"What’s there to be sorry about, you never said you liked me in that way" he says and I reach out to wipe the stray tear sliding down his cheek.

"So go, go be happy, get the love you deserve and the family your deserves" he says and gets up.

"Are you leaving me?" I ask and he chuckles.

"Hyung, I am incapable of leaving you, I just don’t want to be here when he gets here" he nudges his chin towards the driveway.

Hanuel is standing there looking at us.

My omega howls at the sight of the alpha...he’s really here?

"Go on, hyung, go to him...we already settled our difference" he whispers, presses a kiss to my cheek and walks away the other way.

They settled their differences? They’re okay?

"Hello" Hanuel whispers, his hands are by his side and he is wearing a pin on him...he is lord of the Hwang pack now.

"Yeon-ssi...I have been given permission by your best friend to- to-" he starts to stutter as I get up.

I missed him...I never imagined missing anyone like this.

I don’t even miss my own father and mother...but I missed him.

"You didn’t tell me you were coming" I ask, interrupting him through my tears, and walking towards him blindly, I know he would catch me.

"I wanted to surprise you" he says and hugs me tightly.

His body feels tensed as he holds me, he noses at my scent gland and pulls away immediately. 𝓯𝓻𝒆𝙚𝒘𝓮𝙗𝓷𝒐𝓿𝙚𝒍.𝙘𝓸𝙢

"I’m sorry...c-can I scent you?" he ask.

"Yes you idiot" I laugh and bare my neck to him.

"I’ve been given permission by your best friend to love you forever, can I? Can I love you?" he asks and I nod, wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling him down for a kiss.

"Will you call my name now?" he asks when we break the kiss.

"Jaehyun?" I ask playful while sniffling and holding back tears.

"No, Hanuel, why do you keep calling me Jaehyun" he says, cupping my cheeks and swiping at the tears rolling down my cheek.

"I’ll call you my Lord forever" I say.

"I’ll change your mind" he says and I tiptoe to kiss him again, "we’ll see about that" I whisper.

This is just the beginning of forever...we don’t even know what will come next, but I will stay for it.