Future Beast World: Becoming A Pampered Beauty-Chapter 203 - 147: Memory

This was the first time Sang Luo had ever experienced it—the gut-wrenching pain of a soul mark being severed.

The Little Snake slowly slithered over and gently offered her the ring. "Mother, this... that uncle told me to give it to you."

Caesar shot it a glance.

Little Qi scampered off in a flash.

Sang Luo peered into the Qiankun Ring. It was filled with Heavenly Materials and Earthly Treasures and Crystal Stones, all for raising a child. Si Ye had left his entire fortune to her. A piercing pain twisted in her heart...

Sang Luo left the Southern region and returned to the Central Marquis Mansion, but she couldn’t find Si Ye.

The steward said the Young Master had left several days ago and hadn’t returned.

Sang Luo then went to the Beast King Palace, but Fei Yuan didn’t know Si Ye’s whereabouts either.

Sang Luo searched every place they had ever gone together, big or small, from scenic trips to casual strolls through the city. But there was no trace of Si Ye. It was as if he’d vanished from the face of the earth, leaving no word behind.

Her heart heavy with anxiety, Sang Luo traveled to the Bian Clan Land in the Western Region’s Northern Border.

"Young Madam, the Young Master has not been back recently," said an old servant who had raised Si Ye since childhood. "Ever since he came of age, he’s seldom returned to the clan land. He spends most of his time traveling, so we don’t know his recent whereabouts. You could ask the Clan Leader; perhaps she knows something."

"Where is the Beast Mother now?" Sang Luo asked, her throat tight.

"The Clan Leader is in Handan Hall, in the inner palace, with her Concubine, Zhu Su. I will lead you there at once, Young Madam."

"Thank you."

When Sang Luo arrived, she saw Si Jing sitting by a lotus pond in the courtyard, playing chess with a male Beastman dressed in white.

The man had an elegant and distinctive presence. He offered Sang Luo a gentle smile as she approached, as refreshing as a soft breeze. "Ah Jing, and this is?"

"Little Luo, you’re back! Come, sit here with the Beast Mother!" Si Jing quickly beckoned Sang Luo over and introduced them. "Little Luo, this is my Concubine, Zhu Su. He’s a young master from the Bai Ze Clan and will be living in the palace permanently from now on."

"Zhu Su, this is Ah Ye’s partner, Sang Luo. You saw her at the wedding, though I didn’t get a chance to formally introduce you. Little Luo is pregnant with my grandchild, so you’ll need to help take good care of her from now on."

"The noble female Sang Luo looks so very young. How fortunate!" Zhu Su said with some surprise.

"Greetings, Father-Concubine Zhu."

After greeting them both, Sang Luo turned to Si Jing. "I came here to ask you something, Beast Mother. Have you heard from Ah Ye recently?"

"You’re pregnant. Shouldn’t Little Ye be with you?" Si Jing’s expression shifted as she put the pieces together. "What’s wrong? Did you two have an argument?"

"I... I broke his heart. Now he refuses to see me," Sang Luo said, her expression somber as she bit her lip.

"It’s just a lovers’ quarrel, nothing to make a fuss about. Is he really throwing a tantrum over it?" Si Jing said, placing a piece on the board. "Honestly, that child. He’s a Male Beast; does he really expect you to go and placate him? Little Luoruo, just focus on nurturing the baby. Pay him no mind."

Sang Luo shook her head. "He’s truly angry this time, Ah Ye is. I have to find him."

Zhu Su smiled. "When Little Ye was a child, he liked to hide by himself whenever he was upset. No one could ever find him. When he decides he wants to see you in a few days, he’ll naturally come out."

"Let this Beast Mother guess," Si Jing teased. "Did he find out you were with your other partners?"

"...Your intuition is incredible, Beast Mother." Sang Luo didn’t know how to respond.

"I figured as much. A female as beautiful and with such excellent Fertility as you... how could you not have a few partners?" Si Jing said. "You think Ah Ye didn’t already know?"

Sang Luo shook her head. "He never asked me about it."

"If he didn’t ask, it means he already suspected and didn’t want to hear the answer." Si Jing knew her son’s mind all too well. "Didn’t he drop hints, trying to get you to give up your other partners?"

’...He actually had.’

"Sigh, that child is just so single-minded. You love him, but that doesn’t mean you don’t love your other partners. How could you give up the others just for him? That would be so unfair to them." As a native female of the Beast World, Si Jing didn’t think Sang Luo had anything to feel guilty about. It was perfectly reasonable for a powerful female with excellent Fertility to take several partners; in fact, bearing many offspring for her people was her duty. "I bet that brat is throwing a fit on purpose, trying to force your hand and see if you’ll choose him."

Sang Luo smiled bitterly. She hadn’t told Si Jing that Si Ye had dissolved their soul mark. He wasn’t just throwing a tantrum; he had truly given up all hope, which is why he had severed their connection.

"Beast Mother, is there any way you can find him? I... I’m afraid he might do something foolish."

"That boy is so impulsive and stubborn. He left our ancestral land once without a word, and I couldn’t find him for five or six years. If you’re asking where he’s gone, I’m afraid even I, his Beast Mother, am helpless. However, the clan keeps his life lamp. For all those years, I watched it constantly. As long as the flame didn’t go out, I knew he was alright."

"Beast Mother, please take me to see it!"

"Follow me." Si Jing asked Zhu Su to clear the game board, then stood up and led her to the Hall of Descendants.

The life lamp beneath Si Ye’s name tablet was still burning.

A great weight was finally lifted from Sang Luo’s heart. She had been terrified he might do something reckless in a moment of passion.

"As long as I know he’s alright, that’s enough. In that case, Beast Mother, I won’t disturb you any further. I’ll be heading back now."

"Won’t you stay with the clan for a few more days?"

"I can’t. I have other things I need to do."

"Alright then, you go handle your business. Little Ye might just come back for you tomorrow, you never know." Si Jing patted her hand. "Whatever misunderstanding you have, just talking it through will fix it. This Beast Mother also hopes you and Ah Ye can be happy together and give me several big, healthy grandsons."

Sang Luo gave a soft hum of acknowledgment but said nothing more.

’Si Ye will never come back for me.’

’In his eyes, I’m no different from Bai Wan. I might even be worse—more calculating. I tricked him, stole his love, and took his Primordial Yang... He must think I’m disgusting.’

After leaving the Bian Clan Land, Sang Luo found a spot on a mountain overlooking the Imperial City. She drank from a flask of Spiritual Wine, taking one gulp after another.

The sky was overcast, threatening rain.

A tall, imposing figure clad in a profound robe appeared behind her.

Caesar snatched the flask from her hand. "You still have me."

Sang Luo turned her head to look at him.

Caesar handed her a thumb-sized, white porcelain medicine vial.

"What is this?" Sang Luo asked.

"Medicine for an abortion."

She looked at him in shock.

Caesar was as gentle as ever. "Sangsang, having me is enough. That Male Beast abandoned you, so you shouldn’t keep this child." He glanced down at her stomach. "Have a pure-blooded heir with me instead."

Caesar reached for Sang Luo’s hand, but she flung it away. A sudden emptiness filled his chest, and he looked at her in a panic. "Sangsang..."

Sang Luo’s face was pale as she stared intently at the man before her. They had been reunited after so long; it should have been a moment of infinite tenderness and sweetness, but an indescribable sense of strangeness crept into her heart.

’He might be Caesar, but he’s not the Caesar I used to know.’

’My Caesar was completely devoted to me, but I can’t feel any of that familiar warmth from him.’

"Caesar, you don’t have any of your memories of me, do you?" she stated, her voice sharp and absolutely certain.

"..."

Sang Luo stared at him for a long moment before letting out a self-deprecating laugh. Then, she turned and walked away.

Caesar remained frozen to the spot, stunned.

A sudden clap of thunder cracked through the sky as the rain began to pour down. The man’s profound robe was instantly soaked through, a chill seeping deep into his heart.