How To Survive as a Villain-Chapter 115: There’s Always A Rainy Night, A Dry Wood And A Burning Fire.

‘Yan-ge, even though you’re blind! You were able to find the right place to flirt, this must be the Male Lead’s halo shining brightly, right?!’

‘But, why did you suddenly change from a bitter man to a Tyrannical President?!’

‘Can you just act one script at a time, until the end? You’re always jumping from script to script. I don’t know how to act opposite of you anymore!’

Xiao YuAn subconsciously stretched out his hand against Yan HeQing, however, the moment he tried to push him away with all the strength he had, he breathed out.

He had promised himself that he would follow the original plot. He stopped himself from pushing Yan HeQing away because he didn’t want to give up halfway. Moreover, it would be bad if his wounds suddenly split open like before, because he didn’t follow the plot.

Yan HeQing’s eyes turned dark as he felt that Xiao YuAn didn’t push him away. He wrapped his arms around Xiao YuAn’s waist, closed his eyes, and mercilessly pried open his lips and mouth.

Xiao YuAn was still worried that such intimacy would lead to Yan HeQing finding out that he wasn’t a woman.

But soon he found himself not worried anymore.

Because he stopped thinking altogether.

Yan HeQing kissed him deeply, his tongue wrapping around Xiao YuAn’s indulgently. Probably because he was drenched from the rain before, Yan HeQing’s lips were cold, but this cold sensation soon became warm due to the friction between both their lips and tongues. This warmth invaded every corner of Xiao YuAn’s mouth, the entanglement of their tongues made him feel a strange and numbing sensation run all over his body. Instinctively, he tried to avoid this new sensation, but Yan HeQing was firmly pressing him to the ground, so he could only passively accept the kiss.

When the kiss ended, both of them were panting.

Xiao YuAn was kissed so hard that tears burst out from his eyes, gasping for breath as he laid on the ground, using his arm to cover up his eyes. He didn’t have the face to look at Yan HeQing right now.

Xiao YuAn really wanted to jump into the fire and burn himself to death.

He moved his body to climb over the fire, but after taking two steps, he felt that he shouldn’t escape from reality, so he walked back.

Since he couldn’t escape reality, he had to think of something to say quickly.

Fortunately, his desire to survive made Xiao YuAn have a quick mind and an excellent memory.

He remembered some fragments of Lin Shenling and Yan HeQing’s settling down in love from the original book, which was more or less the same situation as now, and decided to put it to use.

Xiao YuAn coughed twice, trying to calm himself after that deep kiss, and when he made sure that his voice was still a femenine one, he said: “Did you perhaps misunderstand me, Gongzi? Why did you kiss me when I accidentally touched you right now?”

Yan HeQing was shocked for a brief moment, his arm around Xiao YuAn was neither withdrawing nor advancing, and a trace of panic appeared on his usually calm and indifferent face. He murmured a few words while his hands trembled slightly to support himself while he tried to get up.

It was hard for Xiao YuAn to watch him react like this, so he stretched out his hand and grabbed Yan HeQing’s arm that was leaving his side and asked in a low voice: “Gongzi, did you kiss me because you like me?”

Xiao YuAn’s voice was very soft, so when he stopped talking, the cabin became extremely quiet. The only sound left behind was the crackling of the dry wood in the fire.

The firelight leapt on their faces, extremely silent.

Yan HeQing remembered that when he was on the verge of death, he would always end up dreaming about the late Emperor of the Northern Kingdom kicking him into the stinking mud.

He didn’t struggle, or curse, allowing himself to sink in the mud.

When suddenly, someone grabbed his arm, pulling him a little towards a clean and bright place.

When Yan HeQing raised his head, he saw Xiao YuAn beside him, smiling at him.

That smile was Yan HeQing’s calamity. It was his own karma, his sin, his confinement within a circle drawn on the ground1, and his deep and undying love.

It was also his lack of remorse and fearlessness.

Yan HeQing held Xiao YuAn in his arms again, and when their chest collided, he could hear that his heartbeat sounded like a drum. Xiao YuAn felt the warm breath of Yan HeQing in his ear, which made him feel itchy, and he subconsciously wanted to hide away. But right at that instant, he heard Yan HeQing whispering in his ear: “I love you.”

Xiao YuAn’s heart felt like it was suddenly being clutched, every inch of blood was flowing all over his body. The cold places of his body felt even colder, the warm places of his body felt even warmer. Nothing felt normal inside of him.

Even though he knew that Yan HeQing’s words weren’t directed to him, but to the “Lin Shenling” he was pretending to be, the sudden and decisive declaration of his true feelings still caused Xiao YuAn to feel very flustered.

Xiao YuAn wanted to say what Lin Shenling said next in the original plot, but when he opened his mouth, he found that his voice was shaking. He took a long time to calm himself, and then said: “Gongzi, you’re saying that because you can’t see me now. But when your eyes heal, when you’re able to see me, if I look ugly, if you don’t like my appearance, if….”

‘If you find out that I’m the person you hate, if that time comes, will you still love me?’

Xiao YuAn didn’t dare to look at Yan HeQing, so he wasn’t able to see Yan HeQing’s deep feelings, his infatuation and forbearance inside his refined eyes; he could only hear Yan HeQing say: “My feelings won’t change.”

And then, all of Xiao YuAn’s words were blocked by Yan HeQing’s mouth once again.

Unlike the previous kiss, this one was extremely gentle. Like watery moonlight, brimming over the surface of the lake, a vulnerability that ripples at the first touch.

After the kiss, Yan HeQing held Xiao Yuan’s wrist tightly, as if he would disappear if he didn’t hold him close. Yan HeQing’s voice was still shaking as he said with the fear of being judged: “What am I… I…. What am I to you?”

In a rare moment like this, Xiao YuAn remained relaxed with the intention of continuing to say the lines of the original book. If the author of the original book knew about his efforts, perhaps he would give him a moving encouragement.

In the original book, Lin Shenling was an extremely introverted woman, and because of the miserable environment she grew up in, she didn’t know how to speak with love. So how should she answer Yan HeQing’s question?

So Lin Shenling, in a hurry, uttered a magic word.

And now, this word was rolling back and forth on Xiao YuAn’s lips, but he found himself unable to spit it out.

‘Fuck! It’s like I’m digging my own grave!!!’

Xiao YuAn was struggling and he felt like his heart was trembling, but when he thought that it wasn’t easy for him to reach this point of the original plot, and how he had already hugged and kissed Yan HeQing; now Xiao YuAn felt that all his sacrifices and efforts will be lost if he doesn’t say that one sentence. He can’t let that happen!!

So Xiao YuAn took a deep breath, and when he was ready, he shouted: “Hu-… Husband.”

Yan HeQing: “…..”

Xiao YuAn: “…..”

Xiao YuAn glanced at the fire, wondering if the fire could burn him to death. It would be even better if no residue were left behind.

“Pfft–.”

Suddenly, a soft laugh broke the silence inside the cabin. Xiao YuAn turned his head only to see Yan HeQing gently curling his lips, his eyes sparkled with the firelight shining upon them, making him look extremely noble and handsome.

Xiao YuAn had never seen Yan HeQing’s smile before, and right now, he couldn’t help but stare at him with astonishment.

Yan HeQing then replied softly: “Yes.”

In the end, it seemed that what he said wasn’t enough, so he curled his lips and whispered: “Wife.”

Xiao YuAn: “….. Ah ….. Ye-yes?”

‘Do you want to sing a love song? Watch the most beautiful fireworks…..?’

Yan HeQing was stunned at first, but then he laughed softly again.

Xiao YuAn: “……”

‘Fuck, I-I-I’m blushing!!!’

‘I want to fucking burn to death!!!’

‘I want a fucking thundelbolt to kill me right now!!’

Right the next moment, a blinding white flash of lightning suddenly fell outside the cabin, followed by a deafening thunder.

Xiao YuAn: “……”

‘I was just talking bullshit!!!! I don’t want the lightning to split me in half, don’t split me in half!!’

I’m back!! (((o(♡´▽`♡)o)))

And with such a good chapter too 👀👀

YHQ might not know what is going on, but he sure did took good advantage of it 😂😂😂

Footnotes

画地为牢 huà dì wéi láo; It’s a Chinese idiom, used as a metaphor for “only being allowed to move within a specified range”. From《报任少卿书》(bào rèn shǎo qīng shū), “Report to Ren Shaoqing”. Written by (司马迁 sī mǎ qiān) Sima Qian [145-86 BC] an historian from the Han Dynasty [206 BC-220 AC]. It’s said that in ancient times, people were very self-disciplined and moral. If someone made a mistake, they would draw a circle on the ground to restrain themselves as a punishment. Even if there was no one around them, they would never walk out of the circle ahead of time. It’s also said that in ancient times, the criminal law was so lenient that they drawed a circle on the ground to make the sinners stand in them as a form of punishment, this was the same as the prison for future generations.