Meteor Fall Master in the 'Starry Abyss'-Chapter 1370: Overture of the Tide: Nomi_2

Bam!

A barrage of complaints shot out like a machine gun, and Nomi slammed the liquor bottle onto the coffee table.

"Fuck!"

Rista shrank back, startled by Nomi's aura.

"It's because we're not strong enough ourselves."

Nomi spread out her palm and clenched her fist:

"If any of us had his kind of talent, then when Azure Star faced a crisis again, there'd be no need to rely on others for help."

"I actually knew long ago, when I was wandering on that wasteland and got captured for research by those institutions, I knew that hope is not something to pin on others. You can only fight it out with your damn fists!"

"But..."

She helplessly released her hand, resting her forehead, and murmured to herself:

"This isn't some boring third-rate fantasy novel. It was already a miracle that someone like him appeared on Azure Star. There's no way there'd be a second one— even if there were, it'd be tens of thousands of years later."

"In this Starry Abyss, everything is already predestined."

"Among the survivors of Azure Star, I'm already considered one of the most successful. Most people, even if they had ambition and passion in their youth, have lost the drive to strive after a hundred years— not because they haven't tried, but because no matter how much we exceed the efforts of ordinary people by millions of times, even if we take risks, we can't match the geniuses and talents meticulously selected by the Empire."

"Only now do we understand, Azure Star was brought to an undeserved height by that person, and my homeland is destined to perish. We are not special, nor are we the protagonists of the story, we have no stage in this Endless Starry Abyss."

Nomi murmured, her fingers threading through her hair, the alcohol not intoxicating her, but in her monologue, she became more and more lost:

"If I had known we'd end up like this, why did you save us in the first place, why give us hope to survive when you knew without you, we are insignificant in the cosmic sphere?"

"Now the only drive that propels me forward is the hope of finding him and asking him this."

"Was saving our homeland just a trivial task for you?"

The atmosphere suddenly became awkward and cold.

"Uh..."

Rista scratched her head. Originally, she was just curious, wanting to probe this human girl's past, then tease a bit to relieve the stress of military life.

But looking at it now, the more the other spoke, the more urgent it got, and if it went on like this, who knows, maybe in a fit of passion, she'd slap her, and that'd be counterproductive.

"I reckon, anyway, you're alive now, isn't that pretty good?"

Rista tried to comfort:

"These days, being alive is a good thing—"

"—My Arcane Energy is undying."

Nomi said calmly:

"Being alive isn't happiness for me, it's torture. I won't die, but the pain accumulates day and night—weren't you guys curious why I always charge at the front?"

"It's simple, I really want to die."

"I've tried every way, but even plunging into a black hole, five years later, someone fished out my fragments, and from those less than 21 bits of information, I grew flesh and resurrected from a computer."

"The Evil God can't kill me, Society can't make me die, the Poison Blood of Earthlings only makes me sluggish, but besides these, I have no other abilities."

"For me, the greatest use of undying is as fuel and food."

Nomi lay back on the sofa, looking up:

"The more I want to die, the more I have to go to dangerous places, but the more dangerous the place, the less I can die, and my undying ability becomes stronger. This ability comes from Arcane Energy, no one can figure out its principle, instead, the more they research, the more they reinforce my undying nature. Now...heh, it's not even possible to deprive it anymore."

"Just imagine, this ability given to anyone with talent could be put to far greater use, a smart person could become an eternal sage and transform the world. A strong person could protect the Starry Abyss Cosmos."

"But it just happens it was given to me, someone utterly useless, who can't die but can do nothing, and I can only watch those who should have achieved more die."

"Why was this ability given to me? What use is it to give it to me? Just to let someone incapable watch the world crumble piece by piece, while I can do nothing?"

"I won't age, won't die, my thoughts have long solidified, and I can't adapt to life with the mind of a Longevity Breed. I've already lost all the meaning of existence as a human."

"So I don't find living very joyful."

Nomi drank beer, speaking coldly:

"My life is full of failures, even my suicide attempts have failed, so you got a good laugh."

"...Sorry, Nomi, I didn't expect such things behind it all."

Rista said regretfully:

"So, you joined the war not only to question that person but also to seek an end to life, to seek release?"

Nomi didn't answer directly.

She was silent for a while, then said:

"There's someone who agreed to kill me."

She held the beer can with both hands, speaking softly:

"I hope she, or he, or maybe it, won't break their promise."

Rista gently patted her shoulder:

"The immortality countless people pursue is endless pain for you, those who yearn for death can't die, and those who yearn to live often die young—this world is truly ironic."