MTL - Apocalypse Meltdown-~ I hope everyone can look at it.

Today I want to ask everyone for a vacation, there is no way to update it, and by the way, the reason for the break in the past six months.

Yesterday, I couldn't sleep until 7 o'clock. Today, I have a very poor mental state all day. I hurriedly finished the update of "Dragon Evil" at night, but the old book has no state to write.

In fact, this kind of exhaustion has lasted for 20 days, because I have been attending a training in the field these days. Every day from 8 am to 6 pm, there is no time. I often write the code to two or three in the morning, the next day. I got up early in the morning.

Feeling that the body has reached an extreme load state, I want to stick to it but it seems that the situation is not allowed.

I have always had problems with insomnia and headaches. It seems that after writing novels, I am prone to anxiety and insomnia. The neurasthenia has become normal. I basically rely on melatonin before going to bed.

I have been eating melatonin for almost two years, the effect is not very good, I don't know if I will continue this way, whether I want to start hospital dispensing...

I am late, I remember that when I was preparing to write a big return in 2015, it coincided with the graduation season of my university last year.

I am a university in Canada. The graduation there is not the same as that in China. In short, the whole person is busy like a gyro, and it is almost unlimited to squeeze sleep time in order to write novels.

Then one day, I took the speech of the last class to strengthen my memory, while eating with friends at a Korean restaurant, leaving a speech, and a question and answer session, especially afraid of being asked some words that I don't understand.

I am a person who is very afraid of speaking in front of many people. The house is a second-class creature that plays games and reads novels. I don't like to communicate with people.

So I fainted under this high pressure...

My friend scared away, and the restaurant owner was scared.

Probably less than ten seconds of fainting, the feeling is terrible, like the soul out, I can hear the yelling shouts that the boss is holding me in my arms, and the noise of the surrounding people.

But it feels very far, it seems to be leaving me, I heard this in another time and space or in a dimension, without consciousness and perception.

At that moment, my feelings were terrifying. In retrospect, it was like death...

Saying that these are not sympathy in the blog, just hope that the reader can understand.

In the first half of this year, my insomnia was increasing, and I often didn't sleep for three or forty hours.

In addition, after writing for three years, it seems that I have penetrated this circle, and I have seen some things and seen some people.

At the beginning, I also had a strong resistance to the network circle. Everyone came to see my novel, not to see me grow up.

The break of the big furnace has continued until I started writing "Dragon Evil" and began to get better. The pressure I felt when I wrote the new book was almost no, because no one looked at it anyway, just write it, and it would be even more.

This kind of psychology made me regain my enthusiasm for the novel, and made me realize that I gave up a lot of things to write novels, from beginning to end because of two words:

Love!

I don't care about people and things, I just like to write novels.

This single chapter will be deleted when it is updated tomorrow.

thank you all.