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MTL - Provoke the Fate of Crazy Beauties-Chapter 94
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This hit Huo Junxian too hard, she sat in the yard motionless, her eyes fell on the small grave.
At first Gu Siyu accompanied her in a daze, sitting here with the cold wind, Gu Siyu later felt that this was not possible, Huo Junxian was too dull, she could sit down all the time, as hard as a dead tree The ground takes root in the soil but no longer sprouts, and becomes more and more rotten with the passage of time.
She whispered to Huo Junxian to get up, Huo Junxian didn't move, Gu Siyu stood up and pulled Huo Junxian into the room.
Huo Junxian fell directly to the ground, she looked up.
Gu Siyu squatted down and touched her face with her fingers, her delicate and beautiful face was blown cold by the wind at the moment, Gu Siyu held her face with both hands, thinking about the temperature to her.
"Huo Junxian, please don't do this?" Gu Siyu comforted her.
Gu Siyu can accept Xiaoyu's departure, because her feelings are not as strong as Huo Junxian, and she also expected it early and made sufficient psychological preparations, she can handle this sadness well. But Huo Junxian was different. Teddy's departure was a disaster, and it hurt herself.
Gu Siyu didn't expect Huo Junxian's sadness to make her so sad. Seeing Huo Junxian like this, she really wanted to have magic to bring Teddy back to life.
Huo Junxian felt her fear, so she closed her eyes first, and her lips moved, as if she was saying something.
Gu Siyu knelt down and listened, only to hear her say: "So sad."
Gu Siyu's heart throbbed.
So sad, so is she.
How can I get better?
"I want to sleep for a while." Huo Junxian whispered, "I've been sleeping like this, pretending to know nothing."
Gu Siyu tried to cheer her up, "Don't do this, we have to cheer up, are you hungry, I'm hungry, do you have anything to eat?"
She touched Huo Junxian's face, and Huo Junxian hasn't shed a single tear since Teddy left. Gu Siyu wanted her to cry and vent her grief.
Adults can understand this feeling, and tears can’t be shed when they are especially sad.
Huo Junxian was still confused and couldn't accept it. She selfishly didn't want Teddy to leave.
Gu Siyu lowered her head and touched her forehead, she said softly, "It will get better, it will definitely get better, trust me, we are not in a hurry, we will come out slowly."
Huo Junxian has not eaten or drank for two days, has no interest in anything, has no desire for anything, as if she would die like this.
Gu Siyu was not calling Huo Junxian to get up, she went to the kitchen to cook noodles, noodles in clear soup, she had a bowl and Huo Junxian a bowl, Huo Junxian didn't move, she couldn't eat it.
Teddy has been with Huo Junxian for so many years, but it is totally unacceptable to leave Huo Junxian suddenly, but fate cannot resist.
Gu Siyu finished eating the noodles, and then pulled Huo Junxian up, she took another bowl of noodles and blew it to Huo Junxian's lips, Huo Junxian shook her head, meaning not to eat.
"Is it okay to eat a little? I know you are sad, but if you embarrass your body like this, think about how sad that stupid dog will be." Gu Siyu comforted her, and now she can only in this way.
Huo Junxian's lips moved, Gu Siyu stuffed the noodles into her mouth and stared at her eating. Huo Junxian's eyes were red and her nose moved. She might want to cry, but found that no tears came out.
"It's okay, the way to express sadness doesn't have to be crying." Gu Siyu helped her to lean on his shoulder.
"It's not closed today," she said.
After going upstairs, Huo Junxian didn't know what to do at all, Gu Siyu took her to the bathroom, took off her clothes, helped her take a bath, and then wiped her clean and changed into pajamas.
There was mud on Gu Siyu's clothes, she took off her clothes and put it on the floor, the floor soon became dirty, she **** her hair and rushed at random, Huo Junxian stood beside her and looked at her action.
"Go to bed." Gu Siyu led her out, Huo Junxian followed her barefoot.
The two were lying on the bed, Gu Siyu pulled the quilt, turned over and hugged Huo Junxian, Huo Junxian stared at the open door.
Gu Siyu only then came back to her senses, she did not close the door subconsciously, and still kept the habit of Teddy when she was there.
The sadness came unexpectedly, Gu Siyu couldn't adapt to this kind of parting, how did that little thing Teddy leave so unexpectedly.
She buried her head in Huo Junxian's neck, "Go to sleep, go to sleep, tomorrow will be fine."
They pin their hopes on tomorrow, tomorrow is a panacea, no matter how sad they are, time will always dilute their emotions.
However, when tomorrow comes, it still doesn't get better.
Don't say Huo Junxian is not used to it, the first thing Gu Siyu thinks when he wakes up is to tease Teddy, go out and see the empty kennel, and his heart begins to feel stuffy.
Gu Siyu went back to the bedroom to go to the closet to get the clothes, and then went to open the curtains of the room to let the outside sunlight in.
Huo Junxian looked at her sideways, and everything outside the window, the morning clouds were still thin.
She must be rotten here.
Rotten.
She **** too.
Gu Siyu changed her clothes, stood in front of the cabinet and asked her, "Which one do you want to wear?"
Huo Junxian pointed to a set of clothes, Gu Siyu looked at it, took out the sportswear, "Wear this."
Huo Junxian was caught in a forced endless loop, trying to recreate the day before Teddy died every day.
Cook the same dishes, say the same things, and even have a lot of the same clothes in the closet, and wear the same clothes every day.
"Good morning, Xiaoyu."
"Gu Siyu, after dinner, what I'm doing today is..."
The exact same meal, Gu Siyu is getting tired of eating.
Gu Siyu was afraid and worried, because she had to cooperate with Huo Junxian, she was afraid that it would go on like this forever, and there was no end in sight, and she was worried that Huo Junxian would not be able to bear this balance.
Huo Junxian kept reviewing and re-enacting, and remembered every detail clearly.
After two weeks like this, the outside is getting brighter and brighter, the winter has passed completely, and I can't feel the bone-chilling cold, but the house is still repeating everything in winter.
Gu Siyu tried to break the balance, she rushed to take the bowl to the kitchen to wash, Huo Junxian stood up immediately and brought the chair behind her to the ground, she did not allow Gu Siyu to enter the kitchen, Gu Siyu smiled and said, "Eat your meal every day, and I will compensate you too."
Having said this, Huo Junxian nodded in agreement, Gu Siyu took the bowl into the kitchen, she looked back and saw Huo Junxian cleaning the food in the dog bowl.
She will add food to it every day, she should know that Teddy can't eat, so she cleans it up in time every time.
Repeat the steps, over and over, over and over again.
Gu Siyu didn't dare to look again, she suddenly thought that Teddy was making something behind the refrigerator that day, she put down the bowl, wiped her hands with a handkerchief, and then pushed the refrigerator away a little, she first A small bell was found inside.
Gu Siyu hooked out the bell, followed by a box, Gu Siyu took out the box and looked at it, there were a lot of shiny things inside, in addition to those small gems, more coins and banknotes.
On the first floor, the top one is the red envelopes she and Huo Junxian gave to Teddy during the Chinese New Year.
Gu Siyu was stunned, these things…
She had watched the video before, saying that small animals have the habit of hiding treasures, and they will find them all when they are about to die.
Many owners choose to bury their small toys together.
These...are they specially hidden?
Afraid that Huo Junxian will have a hard time after she leaves?
Gu Siyu didn't know whether to show it to Huo Junxian for a while, she was afraid that Huo Junxian would feel more sad when she saw this.
Leave a fortune to Huo Junxian.
Gu Siyu took a deep breath, stood up against the wall, looked down at the "babies", and murmured, "Why are you so stupid."
Gu Siyu would rather she think too much and think the dog too smart, otherwise I really don't know how to forget this teddy.
Can a dog treat its owner so well?
How much effort should Huo Junxian take to get back to normal?
Gu Siyu flipped through it again, and besides the money, there were actually a few pieces of gold in it, which Huo Junxian took out as a toy.
How can this be worth it.
How come.
Hearing the movement outside, she quickly stuffed the box back and went back to the edge of the sink to continue clearing the dishes.
Huo Junxian took the dog basin and stood beside him to wash it, wiping the corners earnestly, the two of them stood shoulder to shoulder without saying a word.
During the period, Huo Junxian's finger touched Gu Siyu's hand, Gu Siyu hooked her finger and said, "Huo Junxian, do you want to go to the hospital?"
I asked for nothing, Huo Junxian would not go.
She understands very well, and the doctor suggested her to see a psychiatrist when she was not in good condition. She was very resistant at that time.
Gu Siyu is very disgusted with that thing, and now she feels that there is no way to do it, she thinks to find out first, learning the basics should be able to comfort people.
Huo Junxian did not speak.
"Let's go out for a walk." Gu Siyu took her hand and looked at Huo Junxian seriously, but Huo Junxian was as if frozen and motionless.
Gu Siyu pulled her to the gate of the yard, she opened the door, she pointed to the signs of ash in the yard, and said softly: "Look at what it looks like, if Xiaoyu comes back , do you think it dares to enter the door?"
These words stinged Huo Junxian, she let go of her strength to recover, and Gu Siyu took the opportunity to pull her into the yard.
A lot of sunlight fell on the eyes, so strong that people could not open their eyes, Huo Junxian closed it twice, and then looked at her yard, the ground was overgrown with weeds, falling in winter The dead branches haven't been cleaned up yet.
Although her body is not moving, her mind is moving.
The yard is so dirty, it doesn't look like their home.
Gu Siyu went to the living room to get a comb. She asked Huo Junxian to sit on the steps and stood behind her to comb Huo Junxian's hair. It was hard to imagine that such a delicate woman was covered in filth at this time.
Gu Siyu felt sore in her heart, she went to get water again, and dipped her comb in water to comb her hair, Huo Junxian buried her head and lay in her arms.
Xiaoyu's death hit her too hard.
It's not that she doesn't feel it, she just doesn't want to admit it.
Chen Tao came here several times during this time, wanting to see if Huo Junxian wanted to enlighten her, but Huo Junxian would not open the door, if Gu Siyu opened, Huo Junxian would collapse very much, squatting and trembling all the time .
Gu Siyu did not dare to let Chen Tao and the others come over. She secretly called and asked Chen Tao to find a doctor, but Chen Tao said it was useless.
Huo Junxian had such a time before, when her father died, she was in exactly the same state as she is now, and even stopped her father from being buried. Huo Junxian didn't want to believe the fact that her father died. At that time, Teddy accompanied her, no matter what she did, Teddy followed.
Gu Siyu really wanted to ask, but didn't dare.
She wanted to ask, is Huo Junxian's situation really okay?
She combed Huo Junxian's hair and braided a ponytail, "Are you going out for a walk?"
The two looked at each other.
The absurdity of these few days, like a dream, should be a little sober.
Huo Junxian may also want to get better, she didn't force herself to do anything, and looked at her fixedly.
Gu Siyu was taken aback, thinking that she was not feeling well, she quickly reached out and touched her head, Huo Junxian's body temperature was cold, she said, "I'm fine."
"Well." Gu Siyu didn't understand what she meant, and asked her again, Huo Junxian said: "Sorry, everything is strange."
It's still painful.
My heart was occupied by panic, she didn't know what she was panicking, her heart was broken, her limbs were sore, she didn't know what to do.
I feel broken and never get better.
But thinking about it like this will make her panic even more, she holds Gu Siyu's hand in her hand and dare not let go.
"We went out for a walk and heard that the flowers were blooming outside."
Time passed quickly, and the tail was almost seen in March, and the outside had changed a lot. Gu Siyu said: "I will take you on a motorcycle."
"Okay." Huo Junxian nodded.
Everything is fine, Gu Siyu gave the comb to Huo Junxian and asked Huo Junxian to send the comb to the living room, and then don't think about waiting for her here.
Gu Siyu went to the garage to get a motorcycle, she pushed the car out, Huo Junxian was still in the living room.
Gu Siyu asked: "What are you looking for?"
After asking her, she regretted it a little. Huo Junxian's habit could not be changed at all. She took a dog leash, thought about it, and said, "Look for Xiaoyu."
At this moment, Gu Siyu was about to collapse.
She let go of her hand on the handlebar, covered her face with both hands, and took a deep breath. It was undeniable that Huo Junxian scared her.
She felt that Huo Junxian was overly neurotic.
It wasn't so much that she was looking for the rope to tie Teddy to, but rather the very string to restrain herself.
What makes Gu Siyu even more sad is that she really can't understand.
Didn't Huo Junxian grow up pampered?
Why?
If only she was as gentle as she was on the surface from the inside out, and she wouldn't be so sad because of a parting.
How much pain did that stupid dog leave her?
Can't hurry up, please don't torture yourself.
The nose is sore, and Gu Siyu is also very uncomfortable.
Gu Siyu said softly, "Huo Junxian, don't be like this, don't you feel bad, recognize the reality, Xiaoyu is gone, old and sick. We must learn to accept it and make ourselves a little better."
"It's not just birth, old age, sickness and death, but also accidents." Huo Junxian said, "I'm even sadder than yesterday, and I don't think I can get better."
Huo Junxian has always known what reality is like, but the pain of reality, she is unwilling to admit, living like a dream like this, at least with fantasy.
She held on to the rope tightly, and stepped back, all the way to the back of the sofa, so that Gu Siyu could not see her.
She squatted down, buried her head in her arms, and said, "Let's be like yesterday, so Xiaoyu is still there, I just can't find it, just... I haven't buried it yet."
"It's not nothing, you still have... and..." Gu Siyu choked, "You still have your mother, didn't you promise to see her next festival?"
"I don't want to see her at all." Huo Junxian said in a low voice, "She killed my father."
"What did you say?" Gu Siyu felt that he heard it clearly, but he didn't seem to hear it clearly.
Teddy's death pushed Huo Junxian's emotional door open. Huo Junxian's father died not long ago, and now Teddy has passed away.
She was picked by bad luck and could not escape.
"As long as it's like yesterday, everything will be fine." Huo Junxian insisted on this belief and even took action.
Gu Siyu suddenly remembered the days when she first came here. Huo Junxian lived a fixed life every day, cooking, taking Teddy out to play, and talking to someone at a fixed time.
Huo Junxian's life is also very bad, but she likes to freeze the beauty on that day, rehearse and relive it again and again.
"Huo Junxian, it's fun outside." Gu Siyu seduced her, saying that there are mountains and rivers, and that the sunrise and sunset.
Huo Junxian asked earnestly, "How about coming back?"
What should I do when I come back?
"Then you want to live like this?"
Gu Siyu really hopes that it is her tinnitus, otherwise how should she explain that "um", this cycle will be crazy for a lifetime.
"Huo Junxian, how can you get better?" Gu Siyu asked her, feeling so distressed that she couldn't help it.
Huo Junxian did not reply.
Gu Siyu hates herself for understanding her feelings too much, she is used to maintaining a state, this state makes her feel at ease, she will keep shrinking, if this The state can't make her feel at ease, and she will struggle frantically to regain her previous state of peace of mind.
Because of the pain, I know how hard Huo Junxian is.
In fact, they all know that there is a particularly good way.
Huo Junxian was trembling all the time, she said in her heart: Gu Siyu, you lie to me, I am really sad.
Gu Siyu walked into the living room step by step.
Her heart is very sad, her comfort has always been encouragement, she wants Huo Junxian to come out on her own, and let Huo Junxian choose to forget.
She did not give Huo Junxian hope and hope for the future.
Because of fear, because she is also cowardly.
However, it's a bit overwhelming.
Forget it, her cowardice is not worth mentioning.
Gu Siyu walked forward, she was standing behind the sofa.
trembling.
"It hurts me too when you cry."
"If you don't know what to hold you back, let me hold you back."
"You can either hate me or like me, you will recognize me in the future."
"You are three or four years older than me, and you may live three or four years longer than me. So, from now on, live a positive life."
Gu Siyu closed her eyes, said the most important words, and coaxed her gently: "Don't be sad, I can accompany you for a lifetime."
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