MTL - Seizing Dreams-Chapter 4 look forward to

Chen Yukai smiled and said: "I will casually say, don't mind."

Yu Yu nodded. He didn't even have a goal before the college entrance examination. Grandma got breast cancer again. The doctor recommended conservative treatment. In order to make her happy, Yu Yu decided to go to the college entrance examination. The old man's metabolism is slow, and cancer damage is not rapid. If you are good, you can hold it for two years. Yu Hao did not dare to report to the school in the field, after all, she could not take her to school.

Just six months ago, in June this year, Yu Yu went to the last door in the morning, and Grandma gave him hot milk and put bread. After the exam came back in the afternoon, she left.

The previous medical treatment owed a lot of foreign debts. Yu Yu sold the house and paid off the debts. He decided not to go to college. He first found a job in the city, returned the remaining debts, and then left the country to say goodbye to the past. Life begins from the beginning, looking for the meaning of living.

As a result, he sent a two-month takeaway in the summer vacation, and changed his mind. The supervisor was deeply troubled by his academic qualifications and told him.

"Going back to college, even if you mix a diploma, you are better than holding a high school education, reading a book to change your destiny, not reading. You can only repeat your old path when you go there," Yu Yu explained.

"It's quite good." Chen Yukai said, "But I think that reading is not all for the sake of fate. It is a sigh of death, and the reading experience is happy, and greater than its return. What to do, don't always Going 'useful'."

I don't understand much, but no one told him this. He nodded when he heard it.

Next, he spent a few months' salary and entered school. Tuition and accommodation fees can only be owed first, 400 yuan of living expenses in January, charge for telephone calls, transportation expenses for tutoring, and cold weather to be smashed... Many famous expenses, it is necessary to spend winter holidays. When he moved into the dormitory, he used to hope to have a good relationship with his roommate and start a new life. But from the beginning of military training, he gradually discovered that the problems that have plagued him for many years seem to be always there.

During the military training, roommates smoked. He couldn’t get together. After the military training, everyone gathered for dinner and asked the instructor to eat. One person fifty, fifty is his four-day food expenses, and he does not go. The roommate called him to go to the Internet cafe to pack the night, one night 18, but also to eat supper, twenty-five, two days of food expenses, can not go. Others said that he was invited, he did not have the money to return, and he was not willing to spend the rest of his life.

Roommates scraped money and pulled a net. He was out. He wanted to play free mobile games, so life was not so boring. As a result, Thunder’s thunder, watching videos and watching videos made him angry, because of this, I had a fight with them.

"Apple mobile phone is bought by my grandmother." Yu Hao cherished this mobile phone. When he packed up his grandmother's relics, he found the gift that was packaged and handed over to him after he was admitted to college. There were traces of the fall.

"I am going to sell it." Yu Yu said, "Take it a meal."

Chen Yukai said: "No need to make money, although it is difficult, but it has not reached this point, keep it."

Yu Yu finally recognized the reality, gave up the intention to integrate into the human society of the university, restored the life in high school, sealed himself, and tried not to speak without speaking. Reading a book, hoping to get a scholarship, and the application for poverty funding, he prepared the certificate, and finally did not give him. I have tested these three schools, and what books are I still reading? Who is it for?

“Do you want to apply for a student loan? Did you apply?” Chen Yukai said.

"Not yet approved." Yu Yu replied, "The college said that the materials are not complete, I need my mother's signature, but my mother does not know where to go ... can not prove."

Chen Yukai said, "Well," said: "Let back and ask."

Later, Yu Yu was isolated in the bedroom, like a gloomy wild mushroom, which always made people feel uncomfortable and unsightly. The bedroom often talked and laughed. When he went back, he was lying on the bed with his headphones. The roommate deliberately glared at him. Only when he could not hear, he actually heard it.

Before the mid-term exam, the roommate wanted to copy his English test paper. He didn't promise or refused. The buddy agreed to him by default. After the test, he did not give the paper, and this behavior eventually caused the public anger of the dormitory. When the lights were turned off at night, they took the quilt and smashed the embers, and slammed him hard, and poured a few glasses of cold water into it.

“Hey!” Zhou Sheng, who was sleeping after the screen, couldn’t listen anymore. When he sat up, he went to the bed of the embers and asked, “Which? 405? I want them to look good!”

Chen Yukai did not expect that after the screen, there were still individuals who were eavesdropping and angered: "You sit down for me!"

Chen Yukai looked like Sven was polite, and the words were actually with an unquestionable momentum. Zhou Sheng had to give him a face and had to sit on the side.

Fu Liqun smiled and said: "Red hair has practiced boxing, and one can hit them in a whole class. Last time, we saw a few people outside and pulled a girl to pull a girl. He punched forward and the other person lay down."

"Then you hit it? Anyway, you hurt someone, and others can't call you to pay. You must rely on him, don't you?" Chen Yukai said to Zhou.

Zhou Shengyi thinks too, no one dares to provoke him, and definitely wants to let Yu Yu back.

I looked at them, and I didn’t know why, and I was moved. It would be much better if they were to be roommates when they first entered the college. But maybe they have been together for a long time, and they will hate themselves as well.

That night, he remembered very clearly. He slept halfway, and the quilt was blindfolded. After he woke up, he finally knew what had happened. They beat themselves beat for a long time, and finally when quitting en masse, no more than Hao opened the quilt, just curled up in years, not stop the tears drip out.

"Let them be careful." Zhou Shengchao said Chen Yukai.

Chen Yukai said: "You are just taking care of me. Who is in the bedroom who is being discounted? I will find you. You are the first suspect."

Zhou Sheng: "..."

Yu Yu couldn't help but smile and said, "No, thank you. I want to open it."

Zhou Sheng asked him: "Hey, you have stolen things. You must have done a lot of power in your bedroom. How can you do this? Isn’t it afraid of being thunder?"

Yu Yu said: "Do not blame them for hating me. Sometimes I hate myself."

Everyone: "..."

Later, Fu Liqun introduced him to the work-study job. The reason was that he was drinking tap water at the stadium. In fact, he was clear in his heart, and then he would not play basketball again. The tutor pays him eighty at a time, and goes four times a month. He cherishes this opportunity.

The students didn't cooperate very much at first, and Yu Yu didn't marry her. She only told the truth in front of the parents. After seven classes, the elementary school student may want to drive him away and put the watch in his bag. He didn't want to understand at first, and found that there was more than one block in the bag, because it was once very vigilant.

He thought it was a roommate in his sedans, he took the watch out and put it on the table, and he didn't say anything. As a result, everyone noticed the watch and said nothing.

Yu Yu became more and more confused. He was trying to sell the mobile phone. By the way, he took the watch and asked about how to recycle the old goods. After learning the price, I was shocked. I was preparing to post a notice in the self-study room. The parents of the students would report to the police.

Every time he went to the other side of the house, he went straight into the study. Although he felt that the family had money, he never thought that the watch came from here. Until the police came, he always thought that he was picking up things in the study room, or the people in the back row, put the watch on the table, and accidentally dropped his bag.

"These words, did you tell Xue teacher?" Chen Yukai asked.

"Some say it, some didn't say it." Yu Yu was tired. "He doesn't believe me."

Chen Yukai said: "Mr. Xue is a good teacher. How can I say this?"

"His eyes are exactly the same as my junior high school class teacher." Yu Yu replied, "There was a teacher who caught me smoking, I didn't smoke, I used to slap the table when I was eating, and I was smoked by the next table. The teacher decided that it was me. They It’s biased against me. It’s useless to explain too much.”

"I am not alive for me." Zhou Sheng said with emotion, "It’s really **** alive."

Everyone: "..."

"Then you grew up, you haven't had a friend." Chen Yukai ignored Zhou Sheng and said to Yu Yu.

Chen Yukai’s words are just to pave the way for the next sentence, and wait for the reaction of the ember after the export. Yu Yu quietly thought for a while, just wanted to shake his head and tell him that half of his life is today, and half is also a character. But when he wanted to say "no", he suddenly remembered the general in his dream.

"There are still some." Yu Yu said, "I decided to live well."

Chen Yukai thought that you didn't play cards according to common sense, but still smiled and said: "I am also your friend."

"Me too." Fu Liqun said with a smile. "Some things, don't be too arrogant. It will be fine if you pass."

Zhou Shengdao: "I listened to what you said, and I remembered a film called "This killer is not too cold" with a classic line..."

Chen Yukai couldn't listen, and interrupted: "The infusion is over, let's go, how do you feel?"

Yu Yu is much better, the nurse came over and gave him a needle. Chen Yukai intends to take them to the hot pot. The so-called "everyone celebrates your new life together."

Yu Hao’s meal on the road at noon has been digested almost. He is faint, and there is something uncomfortable in his heart. It is a discomfort of self-blame and a sense of resistance to the relationship of “friends”, as if with Chen Yukai and Fu Liqun. Zhou Sheng has known for a long time, and he will gradually hate himself.

As long as all feelings do not begin, there will be no end, no expectations and no disappointment. From this point of view, Yu Yu prefers friends who just met, to go to the hot pot, let him walk slowly back by himself. However, Zhou Sheng could not help but say that he dragged him over.

Chen Haokai just finished a few mouthfuls of food and received a phone call from the college. He had to leave the order and leave early; Fu Liqun packed two fried rice and took him back to the college, lest he would not know the road. The rest of the embers and Zhou Sheng, facing the dishes of four people.

Zhou Sheng slammed the cigarette, added a bottle of beer and drank it himself. He gave the embers a dish and said, "Go back to the bedroom and say, I cover you, who will bully you and let him wait."

I don't know how to get along with this young social university student.

Zhou Sheng added: "Chen Yukai's scarf, how much do you guess?"

Yu Wei: "How much?"

Zhou Sheng said: "It is enough to pay us a full year of tuition."

Yu Wei: "..."

Zhou Sheng said: "Forget it, eat more." Until the two men barely finished eating the dishes, Yu Yu quickly vomited, Zhou Shengcai sent him to the dormitory downstairs, let him go back.

"The fire machine is for me." Zhou Sheng took the Yu Hao lighter and said, "Confiscation, go back, see you tomorrow."

The autumn wind blew, and the city cooled down in the city one night. The embers shivered coldly. When they returned to the dormitory, the roommates all went out to go online. He dragged the woven bag under the bed and had all his belongings inside.

The house was sold, and there were a few photo frames with photos inside, including grandma and his photos, as well as plastic sculptures, and a photo of the whole class when they graduated from high school. On the day of the graduation photo, he was in the hospital with his grandmother and was not in the photo.

Yu Yu took a good photo and wanted to find a down vest that he could wear tomorrow, but found a wooden raft under the woven bag. When the scorpion was opened, the hand of the ember shivered slightly.

Inside is a chess game.

Soldiers, guns, cars, people, horses...

He remembered the day when his father taught him to play chess and taught him which one is a soldier and which one is handsome. He likes the red character, so they turn into a deep red flag that flies under the Great Wall. It is inevitable and cannot be resisted.

He remembered that after his father died, his grandmother accompanied him to play chess. He always won, and his grandmother played chess, and he never won in his memory.

"Hundreds of victors!" When he was a child, he would have a grandmother, and his grandmother smiled and put the board and returned.

Yu Yu took the chess piece and lay down on the bed. In this empty darkness, he entered a dream.

"good night."

He said to himself that living well tomorrow is like what the general said in his dream of reborn. Yu Yi always believes in thinking day and night. When the dream appeared, it happened to be the last moment in his life. He would do such a dream, perhaps meaning that he was deep inside, still holding a little expectation of trying to live.

"Back?" said the general's voice.

Yu Xiaoran woke up and shouted. He sat up from the floor and the general was kneeling on one knee and staying at his bed like a faithful guardian.

"How...what is it for you?" Yu Yu was shocked.

The first time I dreamed, Yu Yu only thought it was a natural phenomenon. Now I entered the dream for the second time and met him again.

The general sat down on the knees and hugged his arms, and the move was a bit clumsy because of the friction of the armor.

"After you put it on, it's safe for the time being." The general said seriously. "But I want to find myself and I have to work hard."

"No, no." Yu Yu is difficult to channel, "Wait, this... is this true?"

He turned his head to look at the surrounding environment, and he was in a private house, a wooden wall and a wooden floor.

"This is your dream." The general said.

"I know this is my dream..." Yu Yu was a little confused and said, "Can this dream, like a serial?"

“It’s weird?” said the general. “Here is a fixed form of your sense of the world. Get up, go out and see?”

The general put his hand to the embers, pulled him up and motioned him to push the door. The embers pushed open the door of the house. After the glare disappeared, the vast mountains, hills and fertile fields appeared, and the cattle and sheep flocked between the mountains. . The sky is dark, but it is already brighter than the wall of the Great Wall.

Yu Yu looked at the scene, and the general went out of the house and closed the door, explaining: "The world of dreams is very big. With your experience, the border will continue to expand."

"I have never dreamt of seeing it here." Yu Yu said with a frown.

"I must have seen it." The general lowered his head and adjusted the metal gloves. His fingers stretched and grasped. He said casually, "You just forgot. This time, my strength has become stronger. I should be able to safely **** you to the totem." ”

"Totem?" Yu Yu turned to look at the general.

"Let's talk while walking."

"Totem is something that you have always adhered to in your heart, and it is also known as the 'heart'. The place where it is, the center of the world, determines how your ‘self’ behaves.”

On the prairie, cattle and sheep are in groups, and there are earthy and paved roads at the foot. The generals and Yu Yu go all the way.

"You still believe in hope, but it has become more and more marginalized for a long time. It has been rushed to the end of the world of consciousness. When it is a little bit, it falls into the subconscious world. Remember the last time standing on the edge of the Great Wall?"

Yu Wei: "Yes, I... I always wanted to jump, I felt that someone was pushing me behind me."

The general said: "Now, you are turning back, so I will take you back to where the totem is, and let you regain control of the world."

"And then?" Yu Yu asked, "What will I do?"

"You will become a better self." The general said simply, "or, say, change back to the old one."