My Fated Mate Can Have Her-Chapter 60: She Looks Different

Violet

Walking back into that room replaced my thoughts off Astrid’s strange behaviour to a strange sentimental feeling.

I closed the door behind me, letting my bag slink down my arm to the floor as I took the space in. It was clean and dusted. I should feel relieved to be back, but a part of me wasn’t entirely happy about it.

I slowly walked towards the window and stared out towards the inner district in the near distance.

The feeling I couldn’t name defined itself almost immediately. I felt confined. The walls of this room now pressed in on me like a cage I couldn’t escape.

My fingers traced the window pane absently as I tweaked my hearing slightly enough to hear the wolves moving through the streets below. Some were in human form, others in their wolf form, all moving around with purpose and a freedom I didn’t have.

Back in Shadowpine, I had hidden indoors whenever possible. I used to dread every moment outside where scornful eyes could find me, where their hands could reach me, and where their harsh voices could cut me down with casual cruelty.

I had always felt safe in my family home, then the hut, now this place when I first came... until now.

I wanted to be out there. Wanted to feel the sun on my face one more time. Being in the woods had been so freeing. I stepped back from the window, lightly frowning and trying not to dwell on it, but my chest ached.

I liked being outside.

But now that I was here, when next would I go outside again?

I let out a frustrated sigh and wrapped my arms around myself. The faint pull and uncomfortable tug of certain parts of my body reminding me of the training. I still ached in some places.

And then with what happened in the cave.

I stilled and I shook my head sharply, trying to dispel the images.

’Stop thinking about it.’

I had done a perfectly good job not thinking about it on our way back, even though I could clearly tell he was watching me. Though, that would have likely been because he was monitoring my steps.

But the—

I squeezed my eyes shut as the heat crept up the back of my neck.

I opened my eyes and went towards the bag, unraveling my things inside. I just needed to keep myself occupied. That was all.

By the time I emptied the sack, my nerves had calmed down.

My shoulders sagged.

I was getting side tracked.

I needed to focus on what actually mattered. Like whether I even wanted to stay here. Whether joining his pack would be the right choice or just another cage with prettier bars. The pack members did not take a liking to me, and I...

I sat back on the floor, taking in a deep breath.

Four months. That’s what he had given me. Four months to decide if I wanted to bind myself to this place, to him, to a life I still wasn’t sure I understood.

And four more months till I saw Damon’s stupid face again.

My mood soured. Then again, it should be a bit less than four months with the three weeks I spent in the woods with Kael.

Training and... other things that made it impossible to think objectively about any of this.

But even as I tried to organize my thoughts, my gaze drifted back to the window. To the open sky beyond it. To the freedom I had only just discovered and already missed desperately.

Maybe staying on my own in the woods would be wonderful. No judging stares or harassing wolves all because I was an Omega.

Still, even if it was to go outside for a walk on the grounds or in the city, I don’t think I would mind the attention so much anymore. Which was surprising as this was something I actively wanted to avoid in the past.

Being noticed used to be my worst nightmare, but now...

Was it because I was stronger now?

I flexed my hands in front of me, feeling the pulsing flow of the syzygy throughout my body, along with the larger reserve I had stored inside me.

"Should I try it?" I whispered, thinking about the amount of energy I would need to generate that invisible shield I had unknowingly created in that clearing.

I had wanted to try using it again, but Kael had adamantly refused.

Even though it drained a lot of my syzygy, wouldn’t it be better to practice and fully understand it?

But the memory of it called to me.

I could try it now that he wasn’t here. It consumed a lot of syzygy for a reason. If I could just—

I sensed someone approaching and I went still, my senses automatically sharpening.

My eyes widened.

Lyra?

Within minutes, she was near the door and before she could knock, I opened the door.

Lyra jumped, her eyes flaring wide as she clutched her arms startled.

I flinched. "Oh, I’m sorry for startling you." 𝙛𝒓𝓮𝒆𝔀𝒆𝙗𝓷𝒐𝙫𝒆𝙡.𝒄𝓸𝓶

She visibly relaxed, lowering her arms as she let out a faint nervous laughter. "Oh, it’s fine... welcome, Violet."

She smiled sheepishly and lowered her eyes.

"Thank you," I just answered, now feeling awkward too.

The last time I had seen her was when Astrid had attacked me. And I had ignored her too when she had come to give me food, asking me to apologise to his sister. Ironically enough, it was the same meal she brought me that Astrid ended up dumping on me.

"Madam Tow told me you went out for some special training... you look... different."

I found her staring back at me, really staring at me. Her mouth opened slightly, the closed. She fiddled with her fingers, a strange admiration on her face that slightly confused me.

I blinked, not knowing what to say at first.

I knew I felt different. Stronger. Possibly maybe a bit more confident, but for me to look different?

Did I look that different?

Lyra stared at me like I was someone she no longer recognised.