Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas-Chapter 174: And I won’t be doing anything I don’t want to do

Just what was wrong with me?

How could I allow him to jerk off in front of me simply because I felt ’responsible’?

This was definitely a line on its own and we were crossing it.

How will I ever be able to face him after this?

I looked uncomfortable with the idea and he could see it.

"Jo-Pil, you don’t have to suggest such an idea." He said. "I can take care of my business on my own. Just... Don’t try to push yourself too hard."

I gulped.

He probably didn’t want to do it with me when I looked so against it like I was being forced into it.

"I’ll head to the bathroom and..."

I quickly grabbed his arm, barely since I couldn’t see. It was a good thing he was still standing in the position he was in before I tied the blindfold.

"I... I want to do something for my master as well." I said. "I want to. It’s just... I’m not used to it but I’m sure I’ll get over it. Please, Hyung. Let me help you."

I couldn’t see anything so my sensitivity was heightened. My heart was racing, and I couldn’t tell what he was doing or what expression he had on his face.

It was dark and silent, making me even more uncomfortable. Should I just take off the blindfold first and then...?

"Jo-Pil," he called, grabbing my hand. "I don’t want to do stuff like that in front of you just because I am your master." He said, which surprised me. "I don’t want to be just your master." I could feel his hand trembling as he clutched mine.

It was as if the words I said weren’t what he wanted to hear. He didn’t want to do stuff like this just because he was my master, because it would seem like I was doing this out of obligation and not because I wanted to.

But I... I wanted to. I wanted to help him. How do I make him see that I only used his title as my master to make an excuse?

I pursed my lips and clutched his hand.

"I don’t want to just be your master, Jopil." His voice was soft and silent, despite his condition. "I... I want to be..."

"Someone I care about." I completed his words and his eyes widened. I could feel his gaze on me more than before. A wide and surprised struck gaze. "That’s who you are to me, Hyung." I smiled softly. "You’re someone I care about, and I can feel it in my heart; that’s why I am going this far with you. I haven’t done this with anyone before; not even the other masters, but I feel I can do this with you." ƒreewebɳovel.com

Since I was blindfolded, my nervousness went through the roof and my heart kept pounding.

"And I won’t be doing anything that I don’t want to do. You’re going to kiss me like you did earlier. I..." I shyly turned my face away. "I like your kisses, and I can’t stop trembling as you roam your hands over my body. I shouldn’t be saying something like this because I’m still not a hundred percent sure but if it’s you..." I wish I could see him. "If it’s you I’m sure it’ll be okay. I..." I wanted to see the expression on his face. "I trust you."

After what I said, we fell into a silent moment with our hearts raging as if undergoing a competition to see which was louder or which would end up breaking our ribcages first.

In any case, it was a stiffening silence that made me nervous. I don’t know about Ki-hoon but judging from his sweaty palms holding my hand, he was equally nervous like I was.

Was he still not convinced?

What else did I need to say to convince him?

Or should I just give up?

They say every disappointment is a blessing in disguise so what if he refuses now and I get something even better afterwards?

Then, let’s give it one more push, and then if he still doesn’t want to do it, I can give up.

I’m not begging to be used as jerking material anyway so I couldn’t really get why I was so eager to help him this way. Anyway, let’s do this in moderation.

"If it bothers you, then should I take off the blindfold?" I asked. "Do you want me to watch you while you...?"

"No!" He was seriously against it.

Hm, but is that a no that means I shouldn’t take off the blindfold or that I shouldn’t stay there while he did it?

Well, one more.

"Then should I do it myself? Is that what you want?"

Such a risky question.

"No, Jo-Pil. Dammit. Why are you thinking that way?" He asked.

Hm, so what would I have done if he blushed and said he’d appreciate my help? I’m such a fool sometimes. I keep putting myself in messes that seem hard to get out of.

"I don’t need your help." He said and I felt him trembling, so I decided to peek at his face, just to know what kind of expression he had up.

I tilted the tie up a bit and saw him looking the other way with his face extremely red as he flushed in embarrassment after hearing what I had said.

He had let go of my hand and covered a part of his face, his mouth as his face flushed and his body shuddered.

Ah, he was finding it hard to take this provocation.

I was stunned.

I thought he was against it simply because he held his pride as an Alpha but it seemed like there was another reason.

Was he just shy then?

Gosh, he was so gullible. I felt like teasing him after seeing him like that. So vulnerable. So handsome and so... My eyes trailed down but I immediately pulled the tie down, closing off my vision.

Just how big was that thing going to get?

Just how...? How did he manage to fit that entire thing inside me in my past life? It was so scary.

"Jo-Pil, I don’t need your help." He said

Was he sure? Cause when I looked at it, it looked like he was going to explode if he didn’t take care of it.

He could take care of it on his own but I wanted to help... Somehow.

Was I being too nosy?

I’ll answer that. Yes, I was.

"Hyung," I called, letting go of his hand and sitting up with my back straightened, something a little challenging for me since it felt like I was straining my back somehow. "I insist."

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