Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 163: You leave me cold

Yunah’s POV

My omega whines loudly inside me at the absence of the woman.

Trying to give myself false hope I reach out to touch the place she slept just behind me, the place she cuddled me and held my body to herself...but the spot has grown cold.

She must have left as early as possible, maybe she realized a girl like me isn’t worth anything.

What was I thinking to expect more?

Gawon doesn’t even know me, all she knows about me is my name and that I am Yujun oppa’s little sister.

’And that we have a mating bite’ my omega adds sadly.

The reminder brings the first sob to break past my lips, and I press my face into the pillow that still has her chocolate scent on it to muffle myself.

The way the pillow still holds the mixed smell from our intimate moment makes my heart clench painfully and I draw in a sharp breath through my mouth.

This hurts.

What did I ever do wrong? I just want to love and be loved.

I run my fingers through my hair tiredly as I sit up, I am still naked but clean from last night.

My body still remembers the ghost of her touch, the way her fingers glide gently over my skin like she thought I would break if she goes harder.

I still remember the way her lips felt on my skin, the way she took care of me first, I wipe the tears streaming down my cheeks with the back of my hand.

"Why me?" I whisper to myself as I drag myself out of the bed.

I put on a shirt of mine and a pair of pants, the outfit is mismatched but needed, I just need to get out of this room.

Sniffling and without bothering to hide my tears, I make my way out of the room to the home kitchen, needing Yeon mom.

The omega man is in the kitchen with his back turned.

He looks like he’s making breakfast and he is dressed to leave for work, keeping his sleeves folded and humming.

At the sound of my feet and the smell of burning vanilla, he turns around quickly to look at me.

The way his entire face softens as he takes in my sight.

"Oh child" he says softly and I burst into tears again, "Mom" I cry as I walk into his open arm.

He wraps his arms around me for a hug, pressing my face into his chest as he rubs my back, he just holding me as I sob into his shirt.

"What’s wrong my child?" he asks me in a gentle voice, still rubbing my back and consoling me.

"I don’t know what’s wrong with me" I cry to him, and he pulls away to look into my eyes, cupping my face as he looks at me.

"What are you talking about? You’re perfect, there’s nothing wrong with you" he says, scolding me gently.

I shake my head, unable to take anything that isn’t an insult for myself, it hurts.

"I-I Gawon-ssi..." I say, not even knowing how to explain myself.

"Breathe honey, breathe" he says gentle and I nod, my eyes still swimming with tears and bottom lip trembling.

"I like Gawon-ssi...I like her a lot, it doesn’t make sense, but I do" I say and Yeon nods, "I understand, things like that are real" he says.

"But she left" I say and break down again.

"Baby" Yeon mom says softly and wipes the tear running down my cheek.

"She can never want me, I have Sehwa’s bite on my neck" I say and turn my neck for him to see and Yeon mom’s face turns hard.

"Sehwa’s sin has no right to damage how you see yourself" he says and I blink.

"But its irreversible, mom...she’s ruined me for everyone else" I whisper and he shakes his head in disagreement.

"If you find yourself attracted to someone else, it means her bond with you isn’t valid" Yeon mom explains and I look to the floor.

"Yunah-yah" he calls softly before I look up at him again.

"My omega kept saying mate...like Gawon is our mate b-but Sehwa..." I stutter and pause as I start crying again.

"Baby...this is more than you think it is..." he says and rubs his thumb on my cheek to wipe away more of the tears that streams out of my eyes.

"I’m really damaged, aren’t I?" I ask him as my heart seems to squeeze into itself, it really feels like something inside me has gone wrong.

"Yunah, baby, Gawon isn’t just a girl you like...she’s your fated mate" he says and my body freezes.

Fated mate?

Isn’t that just the myth that I had spent my childhood imagining, dreaming of having a mated given to you by the moon goddess.

A mate that is exclusively yours, made and given by the moon goddess herself.

A myth I gave up on because no one in real life has ever had a fated mate...it’s all stories.

"It’s not real...right? Mom...it’s all a myth...right?" I ask as I cry harder.

"Did your omega howl the word mate?" Yeon mom asks and I nod, "yes"

"Did your omega repeat it again and again? Like she wants you to do something about it?" he asks me and I nod.

"My child, that’s a miracle...your fated mate" he says.

"She...she’s my true mate" I say softly, still sobbing before wiping my tears with my sleeve and Yeon mom looks at me with his eyes shining blue.

"I guess I am cursed to never knowing love" I say and Yeon frowns at me, not agreeing with me.

"Don’t say that Yunah, you are to be the most cherished pup in the world, you have no idea how much you’re adored" he says.

"But she left..." I say tiredly, already drained from crying.

"Yunah, I’m right here" Gawon’s voice says from behind me and I turn around with my heart pounding in my chest.

She’s standing there with fist clenched and her face set in a scowl.

"I’m right here" she says