Apocalypse: I have a supermarket stocked with supplies-Chapter 215 - She is also thinking

Chapter 215: She is also thinking.

Chapter 215: She is also thinking.

Death, why had she been able to live for so long?

When would Ah Xue finally die?

If only Ah Xue’s death could bring her husband and son back to life.

Why, just why?

Why indeed?

Ah Xue was alive and well.

Her husband, her son, the two people she loved most had died because of Ah Xue.

At the time of their deaths, were their eyes only filled with Ah Xue?

Why couldn’t they think of her, think of their younger sister?

Ah Xue fell into a heavy sleep, but her slumber was far from peaceful.

She had a dream, a dream of her father and brother, from when she was still very happy.

She dreamed of her birthday, when her busy father had pushed aside a lot of work to come home and celebrate with her.

Her brother had made an especially big, gorgeous strawberry cake by hand.

They sang her a birthday song, and she closed her eyes to make a wish.

But when she opened her eyes, the faces of her father and brother suddenly streamed with bloody tears, even as their mouths continued to sing the birthday song.

Then came the blaming, one accusation after another from their mother.

“It’s all your fault!”

“It’s all your fault!”

“I blame you!”

“If not for you, they wouldn’t have died! Why aren’t you the one who’s dead? Why?”

“Tell me! What gives you the right to be alive? What right do you have? They’re all dead! What right do you have to live!”

“Why isn’t it you who died!”

One accusation after another.

Ah Xue was startled awake.

After waking, by the light of the moon, she looked at Jiang Minrou’s face, slowly moved her limbs, and hugged herself.

She too was wondering, why?

Why in the world?

How had she managed to survive?

Ah Xue pondered and pondered, yet before she could make sense of it all, she fell asleep again.

She couldn’t help it; her body wouldn’t allow her to think too much.

She simply lacked the strength to ponder any further.

The next morning, Ah Xue went out on an empty stomach.

There was no longer any food at home, no breakfast either, but that was okay: she was used to going out hungry, it was something she’d grown accustomed to, so it wasn’t too unbearable.

This road, Ah Xue had walked it countless times; she could practically navigate it with her eyes closed.

She took steps, proficiently searching for food.

Today’s foraging yielded nothing; Ah Xue wasn’t a particularly formidable Superpower User. Her superpower was rather ordinary and not all that powerful; supporting three people was barely manageable.

To be precise, even supporting herself alone was a struggle.

And she still had to care for her mother and little sister.

That meant dividing her already scant food into three portions, where she could only eat one.

Already unable to get enough to eat, sharing made her even hungrier.

Moreover, this division wasn’t equal; she always ate the smallest share.

The least food for the heaviest work.

Not starving, but living a life of great hardship.

Ah Xue came back today without having found a single thing.

She returned with weary steps.

As soon as she got back, she lay down on the bed. Jiang Minrou, who had been at home taking care of the little daughter, had been full of expectation upon seeing her return. But once she saw Ah Xue go straight to lie down, she instantly understood that Ah Xue had found nothing that day.

Her expression immediately soured.

“Why are you back so early? Where’s the food you brought? Not even a little bit?”

“None. I couldn’t find any,” Ah Xue said with her face down, her tone revealing fatigue.

She couldn’t find any.

So many people, many more capable than she.

How could she, alone, compete with them all?

“You couldn’t find any? Then you should have continued to look! What are you doing coming back if you haven’t found anything? Are you an eyesore? Ah Xue, my expectations of you are already so low, just bring back some food, that’s all. But you, the food you’ve brought has been less and less each time, and I’ve said nothing.”

“Until now when you’ve brought back absolutely nothing. If… if your dad and brother were still here, they definitely… definitely wouldn’t come back empty-handed.” As Jiang Minrou spoke, she was once again reminded of her husband and son.

Hugging the little daughter, she collapsed onto the ground, tears flooding.

Ever since her husband and son had died, she and the younger sister had been starving every day.

Ah Xue was simply not capable of finding food.

They followed Ah Xue, starving every day.

The youngest sister had always been malnourished, and following Ah Xue, she now got even less to eat.

If only… if only her husband and son were still alive, not dead because of trying to save Ah Xue, she and her little sister wouldn’t have to suffer hunger.

Jiang Minrou hugged her younger sister and began to cry, sob-sob-sob.

Seeing her mother like this, her little sister also started crying.

Ah Xue: “…”

Ah Xue found their crying gave her a headache.

But that wasn’t right, she had a headache to begin with.

She had been suffering from a headache for quite some time.

But it wasn’t unbearable; she had grown accustomed to the pain. Let it hurt, it wasn’t going to affect anything.

However, today their cries made it hurt even worse.

Ah Xue knew that her mother was very good at crying.

In the past, whenever her mother cried, her father and brother would immediately try to comfort her.

But now, she couldn’t even bring herself to comfort her own mother, let alone herself.

She didn’t have the heart nor the strength.

So be it.

Her mother would tire of crying after a while.

Ah Xue had experience with this.

Without someone to comfort her, crying was just making a fool of herself.

Sure enough, Jiang Minrou stopped crying after a few minutes.

It was the younger sister who, gasping for breath, kept crying nonstop, even when Jiang Minrou finished crying and tried to soothe her.

She cried until her throat was hoarse.

Gasping for breath, with her voice much more raspy, the young girl called out, “Sister,” and “Mother.”

“I’m hungry.”

Jiang Minrou’s eyes reddened again, tears fell once more.

She shot a resentful glance at Ah Xue, then turned her head to gently pat her younger sister.

“Mother knows, mother knows. But your sister is useless, couldn’t find any food. Mommy’s baby, I’m so sorry. It’s all mommy’s fault, I shouldn’t have given birth to your sister…”

Ah Xue: “…”

It was the same again.

The same thing, every time.

When would it end?

The little sister is fit to be mother’s daughter, but she shouldn’t have been born, is that it?

She knew her mother resented her, but she hadn’t imagined it would be to this extent.

Or perhaps she did know, but she always refused to believe it.

She was still deceiving herself, telling herself that her mother actually loved her.

That her mother just couldn’t accept the death of her father and brother.

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She had to be understanding of her mother.

She was already an adult.

She was an adult.

She had to be understanding.

But what could she do?

She couldn’t understand.

Hadn’t she grown used to this?

So why did it still hurt so much every time she heard her mother say these things?

Why?

She was so, so envious of her little sister.

She loved her little sister, but sometimes, she was actually jealous of her.

Jealous that her little sister won the affection of her mother.

Her mother really loved her little sister, willing to spend time with her.

Sometimes, she should have just stayed away.

Whenever she appeared, her mother’s smiling face as she watched the little sister would turn sour at the sight of her.

Maybe she wasn’t meant to be alive.

Why wasn’t it her who died back then?

Why was it her father and brother?

Without her father and brother, she no longer had her mother.

Now…

It seemed she had lost her younger sister too.