[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 271 - 269: Withdraw

Chapter 269: Withdraw

At what cost of his decision to go with this mission?

Qin An has to withdraw from the competition.

When Qin An said his decision, it was He Li himself who was fast to say no to him.

The latter’s face was still stoic but he was looking intently at him before coldly rejecting his offer.

"Marshal." He Zhen calls out to his son. "Mr. Qin himself is a great help for this mission."

His eyes squinted a bit. "Since he already decided to join, it’ll be best to respect that, isn’t it?" Although he’s telling that it was the young man’s decision himself, the tone of his voice has an underlying sense of a bit of warning to He Li.

These days, He Zhen noticed something strange towards He Li.

Something changed about his son that he couldn’t pinpoint exactly what it was. But the thing that he could exactly tell is about how he often saw him in daze.

He Li was never like that. He was never the person who would indulge himself to daydreaming as if his thoughts were too deep. He seems to be caught up with something that never disappears in his mind and thus resulting in the increasing number of times he sees the latter alone and just gazing somewhere blankly.

He Li is someone who doesn’t let his thoughts consume his time to do his duty and other things. He never lets himself overthink too deeply and is more focused on dealing with the things around him personally.

He was never emotional, so what could be the reason for this?

He Zhen didn’t even know how to ask this question because the latter wouldn’t answer him.

What is He Li thinking all about? What’s bothering him?

He Zhen looked at his son and noticed his intent eyes staring at the young man in front of them. His eyes narrowed a bit.

Is this related to Qin An?

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"Anan, you really don’t have to do this." Professor Jian walked to the young man who was silently reading the recent reports for the ancient ginkgo tree inside his office.

After his firm decision even after the Marshal objected, He Li and others had no choice but to accept and immediately start preparing for the mission. As for Qin An, he went to Professor Jian’s office to study the planet they’re going to.

The young man stopped reading when the old man who adopted him entered and said those words.

"If you don’t like it, you don’t have to," he added.

"It’s my final decision." Qin An answered.

Professor Jian paused. "How about the competition?"

Qin An was silent for a second before responding. "It’s okay. I heard from Li Bai that there are many future competitions. It’s not that bad to compete again next time." His voice sounded so normal that if you didn’t know him personally, you would think that it’s really fine for him.

However even though they had no time to bond with each other, Professor Jian is very keen on emotions and had watched the young man’s performances in the competition so he somehow knew Qin An’s personality.

Very silent. Stubborn... yet soft-hearted.

His stubbornness came from his long experience that’s hard to move but with his soft heart, this young man had been constantly doing something that he had always admired.

Sacrifice.

Even though the young man never noticed it, he had been doing sacrifices for everyone. His decision to accept the identity as a grim reaper even though he never wanted it back again, his willingness to go back and forth here even though it meant he has to do double hard work to catch up with his performance— and this, the young man just decided to sacrifice the life that he wanted for the country. 𝑓𝑟ℯ𝘦𝓌𝘦𝘣𝑛𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓁.𝑐ℴ𝓂

Professor Jian knew that this was because of his soft heartedness and even now, the young man has been building himself to a new identity— a human.

He saw his efforts and time he put to overcome self challenges within himself. The young man is very dedicated to know everything about being a human and he’s succeeding.

Qin An has now the heart of a human, someone who’s capable of feeling and empathizing.

And he knew how much it’d hurt him to withdraw from the competition.

"What about your friends?" He asked. "Your friends want you to go on stage with them."

"..." Qin An didn’t answer him.

Professor Jian sighed. "Think about it again, okay? And no matter what you choose later, we will respect it."

After the old professor left, Qin An was left behind, still lost in thought about the latter’s last question.

What about his friends?

He Yan’s face and others flashed inside his mind.

If they’ll know his decision, Qin An already knows what reaction he’ll get from them.

He Yan will definitely feel betrayed and cry, Sheng Yan will turn cold and interrogate him, Han Suyan will begin nagging nonstop, Nan Moyi will be concerned like a mother hen and Gu Yujin... he felt that the latter will do something crazy.

Qin An feels no doubt if the latter would also withdraw with him too.

He shook his head a bit but then again halted when he realized something.

When he heard that question, he actually thought of someone— even more than three people subconsciously.

It was not like in the past wherein if someone asked who are his friends, he’ll have no hesitation to shake his head indifferently because all he has is himself.

But now, Qin An actually subconsciously thought of how they’d react to him.

Isn’t it just proving how his life is right now?

Qin An is steadily growing nonstop everyday now. What he was in the past was nowhere to be found because who he is at present has definitely many changes within himself.

He no longer felt alone— the loneliness that was just inside him deeply. He no longer saw his future as someone who will always be alone.

Qin An begins looking forward to the unknown future he’ll face. He began feeling butterflies inside his stomach because of the mixture of nervousness and excitement about what future holds them.

He also became more and more connected to the stage. Right now, he can no longer stay with his past answer— to be an idol to support his life in this interstellar world.

He started growing, to be more emphatic, ambitious to life’s goal— everything.

So how could someone like him now just decide to give up the stage?

Is he just trying to do this because of the influence of the people around him about soldiers’ sacrifices?

What is his purpose?

Qin An lowered his eyes and stared at his two palms.

Just like when he first transmigrated here and observed himself— he could feel his body has warmth and feel like hearing the beating of his once stone heart.

This is him.

Not No.444 or the senior grim reaper but him as him— a human.

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