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At Qingming, Tao Yuan took Ji Chen away to visit the grave.
Tao Yuan had never even seen what his parents looked like since he was a child, so the tomb-sweeping was naturally Ji Chenli's parents' tomb. The cemetery is on the outskirts of the city, and the orphanage will cross the entire city. Tao Yuan didn't want to take Ji Chen away at first, but then he remembered that Ji Chen said he missed his parents before he left, so he thought it was time to take her to see his parents. He also took her with him.
It has been raining continuously since half a month ago, and the concrete floor tiles in the city are slippery and difficult to walk. You don't need to think about what it's like to be in a remote cemetery. Tao Yuan and Ji Chenli got up at six o'clock on purpose, and brought The paper money tributes that had been prepared long ago set off, and it was almost noon when we arrived at the cemetery.
Ji Chenli slept all the way on the bus. After getting off the bus, he was like a bird out of the cage. He was more energetic than Tao Yuan. The cemetery was built on the mountain, with a **** of almost 30 degrees, and the road was narrow and slippery Seeing her running and jumping, Tao Yuan was startled, and firmly grabbed her wrist to prevent her from running faster, for fear that she would accidentally roll down the mountain.
The graves of Ji Chenli's parents are side by side, in a deep corner of the cemetery, and there is no one to take care of them all year round. Tao Yuan thought that the tombs were covered with weeds, but when he arrived, he found that the two graves were very clean, and the weeds had all been cleared away. Yes, a bouquet of flowers was placed in front of the tombstones. The flowers are very gorgeous. It seems that they were put down not long ago. Tao Yuan guessed that the staff of the cemetery probably put them down as a matter of routine.
Tao Yuan took out the prepared tarpaulin from the bag on the ground, put down the backpack, pushed Ji Chenli and took two steps forward, "Chenchen, come, kneel down and kowtow to parents."
Ji Chenli stared blankly at the tombstone, then knelt obediently, and Tao Yuan followed suit.
"Uncle and aunt, I brought Chenchen to see you." Tao Yuan placed the melon and fruit tribute in front of the tomb, took a small iron basin that he brought to burn paper money, and muttered, "Uncle and aunt, I didn't take good care of Chenchen. Chen, I’m here to apologize to you today, but don’t worry, I’m bringing Chenchen with me now... She’s a little confused now, and she might never get better for the rest of her life, but she’s fine, she’s very happy, better than others I'm much happier, it's nothing like this for the rest of my life."
Ji Chenli couldn't understand what Tao Yuan was saying, she just thought it was fun to burn the paper money, so she followed Tao Yuan's example to burn it. Soaring to the sky, Ji Chenli's face was flushed red, Ji Chenli's mind flashed a few sporadic images, as if at some point, she also witnessed such a passionate flame, and the thick smoke made her heart ache .
Ji Chenli subconsciously searched through scattered memory fragments, but there was nothing, she was a little scared by the sudden heartache, lost the paper money and hid aside, Ren Taoyuan refused to get closer no matter what.
After the paper was burnt out, Ji Chenli knelt down at the place where he ran away just now, "Mom and Dad are dead."
There were only two tombstones in front of her, but Ji Chenli saw three of them clearly in her eyes, the word "Tao Yuan" was written on the other, and a **** Tao Yuan was sitting on the grave and greeted her.
Ji Chenli's whole heart was hurting, she screamed, hugged Tao Yuan's neck, and started to get sick again, talking nonsense, Tao Yuan tried hard to distinguish, and finally realized that Ji Chenli told him not to die.
Ji Chenli has not been ill for a long time, the cause of her illness has always been Minglang, this time I don't know why, Tao Yuan didn't know why, so he hugged her back and comforted her softly, but it didn't work, finally Ji Chenli was in She cried out loudly in her arms, the cemetery is a clean place, Ji Chenli's behavior would only disturb the cleanliness of the deceased, Tao Yuan had no choice but to give Ji Chenli sedatives, and let Ji Chenli He fell asleep on her shoulder.
Tao Yuan thought, I really don't know how many things this silly girl has hidden in her heart without telling herself, she can only hold it in her heart, can't hold it anymore, and compete with herself.
Tao Yuan couldn't handle Ji Chenli by himself, so he had to sit with his arms around Ji Chenli, and when she woke up by herself, she talked to herself in front of Ji Chenli's parents' grave, telling the story of Ji Chenli's childhood to adulthood The old man heard that Ji Chenli only woke up when it was getting dark.
"Sister?" Ji Chenli had a headache, pressed his temples and shook his head a few times, looked around, a little dazed, "Is this... a cemetery?"
Tao Yuan massaged her forehead. Hearing her words, his hands paused, "Chenchen?" Tao Yuan couldn't believe his ears, his lips trembled, before he asked, "You...how are you?"
"What's up?" Ji Chenli couldn't understand what Tao Yuan said, "Sister, didn't we agree to eat the pancake fruit next to No. 1 Middle School? What are you doing in the cemetery?"
Tao Yuan's heart suddenly cooled down again, she asked Ji Chenli, "What's the date today?"
"Sister, why do you have such a bad memory? Isn't today just...today...today..." Ji Chenli scratched his head and thought for a long time, and finally stuck out his tongue guiltily, and smiled, "I forgot too."
Tao Yuan continued to ask: "Then what year is this year?"
Ji Chenli was flustered by Tao Yuan's question, and pulled Tao Yuan's elbow to try to fool him, "Sister, I'm hungry, let's go back to eat, okay? I don't want to eat the pancakes, can't I?"
Tao Yuan nodded, "OK."
She didn't ask Ji Chenli any more questions, she and Ji Chenli cleaned up the things they brought, and they left the cemetery together.
After returning home, Tao Yuan immediately made an appointment with the doctor, and asked the doctor to give Ji Chenli another examination.
Ji Chenli is much more sober than when he was crazy before, and also much more confused. She couldn't recognize people earlier, she was mentally abnormal at first glance, now she can recognize people, and she can also greet people, talk and laugh, she looks like a normal person on the surface, but Tao Yuan is more worried than she was when she was crazy More.
Ji Chenli's memory is chaotic, Tao Yuan doesn't know what time point her memory stays in, maybe there is no exact time point at all, her memory is mixed together, but he doesn't realize that there is something wrong at all.
Tao Yuan knew that Ji Chenli was running away.
"Sister, where did you hide my schoolbag? I have to go to school tomorrow." In the evening, when Tao Yuan entered the room, Ji Chenli was rummaging through boxes and boxes.
Tao Yuan brought the warmed milk to Ji Chenli, "Don't look for it, you won't go to school early."
"Sister, what joke are you talking about? You must have hidden it for me again." Ji Chenli took the milk with a smile, and sat on the bed to drink it slowly. Tao Yuan pulled up a chair and sat across from her to watch her drink. After a while, Ji Chenli said again: "Sister, quickly give me my schoolbag. I will go to work after handing in my homework tomorrow. I finally found a job."
Tao Yuan suddenly laughed, and slapped her on the forehead, "Are you going to work or school? Let me know."
"Can't I go to work and go to school again?" Ji Chenli said angrily, "What's more, the teacher who teaches us English is terrible, yesterday I didn't memorize the alphabet well, and she made me stand for a whole class .”
Tao Yuan didn't care about Ji Chenli, a patient, and followed his words: "Whoever tells you not to study hard, the teacher will punish you well."
My older sister stood by the teacher's side and didn't speak for her, Ji Chenli's mouth immediately shrunk.
"Sister, I always feel that something is wrong." After drinking the milk, Ji Chenli sighed and said, "The days go by so endlessly, I always feel that I have forgotten something."
Tao Yuan thought, you have forgotten a lot of things, let alone forgetting, even what you remember is messy and not right, "You are sick, take your time." Tao Yuan said, "There is always time to remember."
"But there is always a figure in front of me. I think I know her, but I can't remember who it is." Ji Chenli propped his chin and said in distress, "What a pity, that sister is so pretty."
Tao Yuan's heart skipped a beat. Ji Chenli used to be an actor, and he met mostly people in the entertainment industry, and there were countless good-looking people, but those were casual acquaintances. If you say that the good-looking "sister" that made Ji Chenli sick like this, Tao Yuan can only think of one person, Ming Lang.
"You remember wrong." Tao Yuan said calmly, and poured another glass of water for Ji Chenli, "How can there be any good-looking sister."
"I hope I remember it wrong." Ji Chenli nodded in agreement, "I don't know why, but when I saw that sister, I felt uncomfortable, hurt and scared, and wished I could hide away, it's weird."
Tao Yuan thought, with Ji Chenli like this, he didn't know whether he wanted to forget Minglang or didn't want to forget Minglang.
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Mingyan is a bit annoying recently.
She took over the Ming family's work from her sister, and after being in a hurry for a year, she finally got on the right track. Seeing that she could finally relax for a while, she was still planning to find a day to have fun. Han Xinyuan, who hadn't seen her for a long time, didn't know where What kind of nerves, relying on myself and refused to leave.
Ming Yan woke up early in the morning and saw Han Xinyuan sitting on the yoga mat practicing yoga with a face mask on. She yawned and walked over, lazily kicking Han Xinyuan, "Hey, aren't you going to chase Ji Chenli? What do you mean by waiting?"
Han Xinyuan glanced at the electronic clock next to him, took his last breath, went to the bathroom to wash off the mask without saying a word, and took a piece of bread that the nanny had just baked on the dining table and ate slowly.
"I asked you, did you hear me?" Mingyan was aroused by Han Xinyuan's attitude, so she leaned over to ask her, "I heard that Ji Chenli is crazy?"
Han Xinyuan rolled his eyes at her and said angrily, "You're crazy."
"..." Mingyan was not happy anymore, she pulled her face and said: "Han Xinyuan, I can warn you, I am your friend, not your punching bag, don't take the anger you get from others on me."
Han Xinyuan paused for a moment while chewing the bread, and sighed, "As long as she knows how to get angry with me, it's fine."
Now Mingyan doesn't bother to meddle with Ji Chenli's affairs, she doesn't answer her words, washes and dresses, and goes out with a piece of bread, Han Xinyuan makes another joke, "You are the top leader of the Ming family now anyway, There are a lot of people below, why is it necessary to do everything personally?"
"You know what." Mingyan checked that she had brought her wallet and keys, put on her shoes and immediately went out, "I won't be coming back at night, so do what you like." After speaking, she hurriedly took the elevator downstairs.
Ming Yan thought, of course it is necessary, Ming Lang entrusted this family to herself, she did not say that she did better than Ming Lang, but she could not let outsiders look down on her, she really thought that the second daughter of the Ming family was an embroidered pillow, she had to make it Show some appearance.
The driver and assistant had been waiting downstairs for a long time. As soon as Ming Yan got into the car, the assistant immediately reported her work schedule for the day, but before she could say a few words, Han Xinyuan called.
Mingyan made a pause gesture to the assistant, picked up the phone and asked, "What's the matter?"
"Where is Minglang?"
"She used to live with Ji Chenli." Mingyan joked, "Why, you don't like Ji Chenli again, and you like my sister again?"
Han Xinyuan had already hung up the phone.
Mingyan shrugged and motioned for the assistant to continue.
The assistant said with a smile: "The vice president looks more and more like President Ming."
This assistant was one of Ming Lang's confidants in the past, and she was as well-rounded as Xu Luyang. Ming Yan looked at her pretty face and thought, it's still different, at least in front of Ming Lang, this person would never dare to have such a A joking expression.
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When Han Xinyuan found him, Ming Lang was feeding my starlings.
"Stupid thing! Stupid thing!" The starling yelled while eating, exactly the same as when Ji Chenli was around.
This silly bird is the only thing Ji Chenli left behind, and Minglang guards it, as if he is dependent on each other.
Han Xinyuan frantically rang the doorbell outside, but Minglang turned a deaf ear to it. In the end, Han Xinyuan had no choice but to pat the door and shout, "Minglang, if you don't open the door, I'll tear down the door!"
Ming Lang didn't want Han Xinyuan to spoil things, so he had to open the door.
"Stupid thing! Stupid thing!" Han Xinyuan came in, and the mynah yelled even more joyously. When Han Xinyuan saw the source of the sound, he burst into laughter, "Everyone in City C thought that you, Mingyu, were missing, so you are hiding here to raise birds and play." ? Leisurely enough."
Ming Lang continued to feed her birds, ignoring Han Xinyuan.
"Stupid thing! Stupid thing!" Mynah yelled at Han Xinyuan.
"You're stupid!" Han Xinyuan wanted to pat the starling to teach it a lesson, but Ming Lang stopped him before his hand touched the cage.
"Is something wrong?" Ming Lang asked.
"Yes." Han Xinyuan nodded, sat on the sofa, crossed Erlang's legs and said, "Ji Chenli is crazy."
Ming Lang paused, "I know."
"You don't know." Han Xinyuan said, "She can't take care of herself at all now, she even has to rely on Tao Yuan for her clothes and food, and she probably can only do this for the rest of her life."
"Tao Yuan will take good care of her."
"What about you?" Han Xinyuan asked.
Ming Lang finally turned his head to look at her, a trace of doubt flashed in his eyes.
"I mean, if it were you, would you take care of such... er... take care of such Ji Chenli for the rest of your life?" Han Xinyuan blurted out and wanted to say "fool", twisted his tongue, and changed to a more euphemistic way of saying it .
After the starling finished eating, Ming Lang opened the birdcage, took out the paper full of bird droppings and threw it into the trash can, replaced it with a new mat, washed his hands, and sat opposite Han Xinyuan, "There is no such thing as discussing human nature in a hypothetical environment." Meaningless."
Han Xinyuan sneered, "You are really cold-blooded, if you say you don't care about Ji Chenli, you really don't care about it."
Ming Lang said: "I warned you earlier, you don't love Ji Chenli."
"I love." Han Xinyuan retorted, "I just... love myself more."
Han Xinyuan herself saw it quite clearly. She felt unbelievable for her selfishness, and struggled for a while. She spent a few months sorting out her feelings for Minglang and Ji Chenli for so many years, and realized what Minglang said. Quite right.
She loves Ming Lang, because before Ji Chenli appeared, Ming Lang only cared about her. Han Xinyuan felt that Ming Lang loves herself, and there is such a proud son of heaven guarding her wholeheartedly to protect herself. Compared with love, Han Xinyuan enjoys it more This feeling of being cherished and valued.
She loves Ji Chenli, probably because Ji Chenli is obsessed with Minglang without hesitation, there is such a person, she only has you in her eyes, her world revolves around you, you are the sun in her life, she will never use her Worried that she will leave you, Han Xinyuan substitutes the person Ji Chenli loves as himself, and almost starts to be jealous of Minglang.
That's why Han Xinyuan became interested in Ji Chenli. What she loved was not Ji Chenli, but Ji Chenli's way of loving someone without hesitation.
To put it bluntly, Han Xinyuan just wants someone who loves him like Ji Chenli loves Minglang in the past. As long as this person is not too ugly, it doesn't seem to matter whether he is Ji Chenli or not.
It is difficult to admit the dark little thoughts in his subconscious, Han Xinyuan struggled for several months, and had to admit that Ming Lang was right.
"What about you?" Han Xinyuan asked.
"what?"
"Minglang, is your love for Ji Chenli true?"
Ming Lang laughed at herself: "It's fake. I'm the same selfish person as you, you know, our love is only for ourselves."
Han Xinyuan was very happy when someone accompanied him to admit his dark side. He nodded in agreement and said, "You're right."
With Ming Lang's acknowledgment, the guilt in Han Xinyuan's heart disappeared a lot. She got comfort from Ming Lang and left contentedly.
Before leaving, Ming Lang struggled for a long time, and finally couldn't help asking her: "Ji Chenli, how are you doing?"
"The last time I saw her, she was still delirious..." Han Xinyuan thought for a while, and finally used the word, "Delirious fool."
"But she is living a very happy life." Han Xinyuan added, "I don't have to think about anything every day, and Tao Yuan takes good care of her. Her broken body is slowly recovering, which is better than when she was sober." Han Xinyuan laughed "No wonder the ancients said that it is rare to be confused."
"That's good." Ming Lang sent Han Xinyuan away and murmured, "That's good."
Her current bedroom is the one Ji Chenli used to live in. She walked in slowly and picked up the photo frame on the bedside table.
It was a candid photo. It was taken in the cemetery on Qingming Day. Ming Lang made a promise with herself not to disturb Ji Chenli again. photo back.
The person in the photo was smiling happily, Ming Lang touched her face and smiled too.
Ji Chenli has never smiled so happily by her side in this life, Ming Lang thought, this is the last time, and I will not bother her again.
"Stupid thing! Stupid thing!" The starling in the living room started howling again.
Ming Lang looked towards the living room, and seemed to see Ji Chenli's thin figure again, wearing only an empty nightgown, lighting the cage and cursing: "Stupid bird."
But Minglang looked intently, there was no sign of Ji Chenli.