MTL - First Player-Chapter 758 seven hundred and fifty six

  Chapter 758 Chapter 756 · "Pioneer Immortal (4 (Sand Sculpture Makes Me Happy Second Score in Flying League Lord Plus 4k)

  After sitting for a day, you decide to turn on the dawn system.

   To open the dawn system, you first need to construct a reasonable [two-dimensional] world.

"I have to enter the dawn system and repeatedly start the simulation that is only me, to measure the reasonable initial value of the [two-dimensional] world. In this way, when the [two-dimensional] world is really opened, all human beings can Step into a 'most reasonable' [two-dimensional] world."

   Your most trusted companion, Lin Guang, explained what you were going to do.

   "I understand, it's like 'trial and error'," Linguang said.

   "Yes, I need to get the most suitable [two-dimensional] world initial value." You said.

   "Let's start, I'll accompany you by your side." Lin Guang sat beside you.

  You store your own consciousness in the dawn system, the time you feel is infinitely magnified, and you start the simulation.

   For example, how much temperature is needed to maximize life.

   For example, how high does the sun need to be for plants to grow fastest.

   All this requires you to spend years, or even decades, in a virtual world.

  The eighty-ninth simulation is completed, you exit the dawn system, and you have measured the initial environment values ​​required by the [two-dimensional] world through many simulations. Next, there are plant values, animal values, city values... You have to match them with the real world one by one.

  When the [2D] is officially opened, human beings can enter the new life most adaptably.

   "Come back? I made tea for you." Lin Guang was always sitting beside you.

   "How long has reality passed?" You drink his tea.

   "Ten minutes." Lin Guang said.

   "Well...I've been in the Dawn system for twelve years," you said.

  Ling Guang did not speak.

   He just looked at you quietly, his eyes like stretched moonlight. Even a thousand words cannot explain the heavyness. Five seconds later, he hugs you. This hug trembled to the extreme, like an oath of faith.

   At this moment, your nose suddenly feels sore.

  You patted his back, unable to escape his trembling.

   "Okay, okay..." you whispered.

   He is always silent, never leaving you, like a knight holding a blood sword.

  You have embarked on a journey that will not tire.

   District Eleven. Free Alliance. Tribunal. Hope City. Antofa City... You have constructed the prototypes of many forces in this fictional world, arranged their positions and buildings.

   You have gone to every corner and measured every inch of land with your feet.

   The [two-dimensional] world you constructed has become more and more perfect. You believe that after the dawn system is officially launched, human beings will be able to persist in this pure land for a long time.

   After the 278th simulation, when you exited the dawn system, your consciousness fell into a trance, and at that moment you almost forgot who you were.

   You are suddenly alert.

  The human soul has a lifespan, even if your body is young.

   The length of time you've been through has begun to exceed your tolerance—your soul begins to wear away, your consciousness begins to blur, and your intellect begins to degenerate.

   There was a simulation where you slept for days. Sometimes, you forget how to chew your food and need nutritional fluids to survive. Sometimes, you even forget how to speak, how to articulate... You are like a young man suffering from Alzheimer's.

   "You, who are you?" After a simulation, you stared at Lin Guang in a daze.

   He was stunned for a moment, then clenched your hand: "I'm Lin Guang."

  You nodded.

   After a while, you say, "Who am I?"

   "You are Asa Aktor."

  You nodded.

   After a while, you say, "Who am I?"

   "You are Asa Aktor." Lin Guang repeated patiently, awakening your worn memories.

   "I'm Asa Akto." You smiled like a silly baby: "Why do you look so sad? Laugh it out, Lin Guang."

   After a while, you say:

   "…Hey, who am I?"

  You don't understand why Lin Guang looked at you with so much pain. Your spirit is on the verge of bursting like a sanda, like a dehydrated fish.

   After taking the medicine, you came back to your senses and realized that you just had symptoms of amnesia.

   You can barely escape your fear.

   One day, you look in the mirror and feel that you are so unfamiliar in the mirror. The thing that settled in those grey eyes... what is it?

   is the smog on the battlefield?

   is finely divided black powder?

   Or the ashes of the deceased that you picked up with your own hands and eventually fell into your eyes?

   Are these muted colors that make your eyes dark gray, or is that what it was?

  …

  【I remembered that I used to like philosophy and exploration so much. 】

  【But now, I can't even look at it. 】

【-why? 】

  【My face has never grown old, but has my soul entered old age? 】

  …

   "Teacher, can we give up? Let's go on a voyage with me." One day, Tretia raised her head, her red lips like a fire, she begged you to leave.

   Her clear eyes, as if interrogating you - is it worth it?

   "I'm sorry." You say: "I can't. I have to take humans into [2D]."

  Tretia could only sigh upon hearing this.

   She gave you a bronze pocket watch with a gold chain.

   In simulation, after feeling fuzzy about time, you use it to time the time. It's your anchor, reminds you of who you are, and reminds you that there's a guy named Tretia waiting for you.

   You have researched the three fields of mechanics, biochemistry and artificial intelligence to the peak. People started to worship you as a true god.

   But that's not enough.

   "The [2D] world is not perfect, and we must continue to simulate and fill in every loophole..." You grit your teeth.

   When you can't hold on, your companions begin to accompany you.

   "Bring us to the simulation." They said:

   "If you forget how to eat, I will feed you."

   "If you forget how to speak, I will teach you to speak."

   "If you have Alzheimer's, we will raise you like a child."

   "If you forget who we are...we'll get to know you again."

   "You didn't have to bear the pain of an entire civilization. Asa Aktor. You are human, not god."

Qi handed you the candy, Tretia gave you a hug, Bei Lisser made a medicinal soup for you, Lin Guang gave you a flute, Xi gave you a network, and Rongyuan gave you Pledge to protect mankind for a lifetime.

  You laughed out loud.

  You like to hear people say you are not God.

   "I want to do something for them."

   "Even a little is fine."

   This is the 244th day of the war, starting from the 293rd simulation, every time you enter the dawn system, there will be a companion to accompany you.

  You and this companion will walk through this barren [two-dimensional] world and complete the task of this simulation.

   But in the end,

   It turned out that they couldn't hold on before you.

   A long time is enough for them to drive them crazy.

   The first one to go crazy was Tretia. She looks like an old lady suffering from Alzheimer's disease, with a young face...

   "Who am I?" she repeated:

   "Teacher, I love you, who am I?"

  You save her brain and enter it into the Dawn system. I hope she can be reborn after the [two-dimensional] world is officially opened.

   The second one who couldn't hold on was Kai.

  According to his last wish, you killed him with your own hands. Kai is unwilling to live in the future [two-dimensional] in the form of a program, you respect him.

   Before he died, he gave you the candy jar he carefully stored, asking you to eat one every day and don't forget to be happy.

   You promised him.

  You are not happy at all.

   (5/9)

  …

  After the two of them died, you became North Lisser.

  During the long simulation, North Lisser began to sleep talk, dream, and hallucinate.

   "It's so cold...Actor." North Lisser hugged you tightly: "Am I dreaming again, don't die, okay..."

   Your vision starts to waver, and you want to save something.

  The human heart can only tolerate a certain degree of despair, the sponge has already absorbed enough water, and even if the sea flows over it, it cannot add a drop of water to it.

   His expression makes you think he's about to cry. You really want them to stop with you and just continue to lead the war in reality. But they would not. They don't want you to repeat the simulation in the Dawn system alone, after all, you already have symptoms of Alzheimer's.

   But you know, you are mortal, and it takes your life to turn on the dawn system.

  It is hard to imagine the madness people will go into when you die. So you buried many administrator accounts in the [two-dimensional] world, and copied your knowledge and body, so that there will be a steady stream of "Actors" appearing in the future.

   "North Lisser, even if I'm not here, you must live." Your eyes trembled.

   "No, I will wait for you." North Lisser whispered: "If one day you disappear, I will find a safe place and wait for you forever...until you appear in front of me."

   "Don't do that," you say.

   Coincidentally, you came to a valley, where there is a beautiful spring. The white-haired boy stood among the flowers and smiled at you. His smile was innocent and cruel:

   "Asa, what do you think of this valley?"

   "If one day you disappear."

   "I will wait for you in this valley, forever and ever..."

   "You must remember this, remember that there is a man named North Lisel waiting for you to come back..."

  You don't speak.

   just smiled at him silently, turned around, biting blood from the corner of his mouth.

  …

  【I don’t know who else will leave me. 】

  【If people want to continue their lives by the departure of their companions, I would rather choose to bear it alone. As long as you are the only one hurt, you won't be sad anymore. 】

  【Otherwise, I always feel like my heart is tugging at something, and the depression is driving me crazy. 】

  【Too many tragedies happened here, I thought that as long as I had enough people around me, I would not feel lonely. 】

  【I seem to be just a heavy shadow, burdened with unspeakable unwillingness. 】

  【Every minute, every second, unforgettable. 】

  【If there are cages everywhere you go, what's the use of escaping? 】

【…don't want. 】

【I do not want. 】

  …

  You are also leading real-world wars while constantly simulating.

   On the 257th day of the war, in the middle of the sand, you raised your sword tremblingly, calling on people to avenge the victims, roaring hoarsely.

   "—Please keep fighting!"

   "-Please go on fighting for the dead Tretia, Moon and Kai, for the life and glory of mankind!"

   The way people look at you is different from fanaticism, more like an admiration. They seem to want to connect themselves to some kind of heavenly kingdom by looking at you.

   All the shackles of living beings are crouching on your legs, and you walk a long way with these shackles in blood.

  While you have to endure the sequelae of the aging soul, you have to make the most decisive and accurate war decisions.

   And the pain that accumulated for a long time finally turned into a sentence—

  "—Please follow me to live."

  Indestructible, like a declaration of war on fate.

   You repeated this cry, your face bloodshot and flushed from the constant call.

   "-Please follow me to live!"

   But it didn’t take long.

   They turned into tombstones in front of you.

  …

  【Sometimes, I want to die in battle. 】

  【But people's eyes tell me - no, you have no right to die. They will even build a strong wall for me with their lives and cut off the possibility of my death with their actions. 】

  【Their expectations have turned into a curse. 】

  【I fought hard, but I only got a me that was riddled with holes, but if I didn’t fight, I wouldn’t even have a me that was riddled with holes. 】

  …

   The 261st day of the war.

  You gradually become a machine.

  Sometimes, tears run down my cheeks without knowing it. You often feel sad and angry, but you don't know what you're sad about, as if it's just a physiological response composed of hormones, not something called emotions in your brain. There are voices that burst out incessantly in your head.

【one more time. 】

【one more time. 】

【one more time…】

  Linguang always sits by your side and accompanies you to simulate.

   At the end of a simulation, you gasp so hard that you almost lose your breath.

"Can you think for yourself...even once? You become the scale itself, with the world at one end and you at the other. Once in a hundred thousand measurements, will you turn the scale sideways in your direction? "Lin Guang looked at you:

   "You always... wronged yourself, ignored yourself, hurt yourself, sacrificed yourself..."

   But you just smiled and didn't answer his plea.

   "Don't persuade me, this is the thousand and two simulations. I succeeded," you tell him.

   Lin Guang was slightly startled.

   He never thought you would succeed.

   But you really did it.

  Like slow motion, you see the excitement in Lin Guang's eyes, and see your companions rushing towards you happily. You see...the perfect [two-dimensional] data has been collected by you, just waiting for you to officially bring all humans in.

   Just waiting for you... pour your life into it.

  You finally built the most perfect [two-dimensional] initial world - you named it "Keusta".

  …

   "In times of cataclysm, it represents a legend."

   You whispered:

  "- According to legend, there is a bird named "Kaius", which rises from dusk and falls from dawn. It hovers above the sky and always accompanies the first dawn.

  "- According to legend, it does not die, does not touch the ground, and flies forever in the air, which is the embodiment of hope.

   "I hope... this bird of hope and peace can bring the sun to mankind."

  When you are separated from the dawn system a little bit, you finally feel quiet.

   On the horizon, the sun rises.

  …

   "The pioneers do not die, the dawn lives forever."

  …

  You looked at the rising sun in the distance and smiled lightly.

   "I would like to do my best to bring you a future."

  …

  …

   "My face has long since lost my smile, my tone has become cold, and even the piano can't exchange the softness of my disposition."

   "How long has it been since I hugged someone or touched someone's hand? I have no idea what the temperature of 36.7 degrees is like. I have already become what I can't imagine."

"So, I have always hated deifying a person. In this way, it is equivalent to depriving a person of sensibility, depriving this person of its soft shell, depriving this person of the ability to communicate and love, and enshrining this person on a cold throne. , alienated into a steel symbol surrounded by flowers."

   "I am proud to be a human being. God is an objectionable race in my eyes."

   "But this world full of holes needs God."

   "But everyone needs me to be a god."

  …

  You look at the red dawn system in front of you with gentle eyes. It takes your life to turn it on.

  You smiled lightly and slowly, but the smile was like a sigh from nowhere, and the swelling and trembling emotions were expanding.

   "So, I'm Asa Aktor."

  "—I devalue myself as a god."

   White birds circle around you.

   is like a grand sacrifice.

   (end of this chapter)