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MTL - Waiting For You Online-Chapter 137 .The future
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137. The future 渺茫
That night, He Jin went to the high-speed rail station with his dad. In September, the weather had turned cold. He Jin remembered that there was a change of clothes at home, and he did not return to the rental house with him, but he gave Qin Qin a taxi before departure. phone.
After Qin Hao signed the entertainment company, he just received several print advertisements. He was busy shooting in the past two days, and he took the time off with the school. He hasn’t returned home yet. Hearing that He Jin said he wants to go back to the city, he suddenly became nervous: "Why are you going back? What happened?"
"My mom is not very good, my dad came to me." He Jin didn't want to worry about Qin Hao. He only mentioned this sentence. When he was on the phone, he was already at the high-speed rail station. His father was smoking not far away. He Jin Speaking very lightly, I dare not let his dad hear it.
Qin Lan didn't have much affection for the "Mother's Mother" who fell his He Jin helmet and left a scar behind He Jin. The subconscious is actually afraid that this *oss will affect his relationship with He Jin, so he couldn't help but ask: "The body is not Too good? Wouldn't it be a lie to you?"
He Jin said: "Qin Wei! This kind of thing can't be used to make a joke!"
He is already confused enough now, and Qin Hao even said this...
When Qin Hao listened to He Jin’s tone, he felt that he had made a mistake. He quickly said, “I’m sorry, I’m not afraid of going back and being wronged.”
He Jin sighed. Before he understood the specific situation, he did not bother to explain with Qin.
"When are you coming back?" Qin Yu cares about this problem, but unfortunately he is working in the body, and it is difficult to fly. Otherwise, he would like to go back with He Jin.
"It is estimated that I will be back in a day or two. I will go to see my mother. I have two months of classes to come back. I have to choose the title of my thesis. I can't miss class for too long, rest assured."
As long as he will come back very well, Qin Xi’s heart fell to the ground. He didn’t know what he was worried about. It might have been bitten by a snake. He always feared that the event of “abandonment” was repeated nine years ago. “Then you remember No matter what happens, I have to call me the first time. Auntie is in poor health and needs to see a doctor. You may not consider the economics and hospitals, even if you are in a good position.
This sentence finally said a decent, He Jin heart warm, said a "good", seeing his dad while smoking and licking his own direction, hung up the phone.
After the father and son met, they were silent. For the cooperation of He Jin, the father was slightly more pleased, but from the beginning, He Jin did not mention the cohabitation boy. This incident still makes the father angry and puzzled. .
"You just called the boy?" He asked softly.
He Jin "hmm", his father knows, and he doesn't mean anything.
He father squirted the last cigarette, smashed the cigarette **** and looked at him: "He Jin, Dad can try to understand you, but this is not the case."
His dad is now a firm look of "my attitude is here", and He Jin’s heart is full of sourness.
Indeed, the truth of the past is regrettable and shocking, and the mother’s illness seems reasonable. However, He Jin, who lacks understanding of “depression”, still does not realize how serious the disease is. “Depression” and “depression”, He Jinzong I think that is a kind of emotional illness, as long as I go back to apologize to her mother, and a solution, take care of his mother's emotions, everything will be better.
However, he still does not intend to compromise on this. He has tasted the taste of freedom. He Jin can hardly imagine that he will live under the control of his mother, and he does not want to cater to his mother's expectations because of this disease.
He Jin intends to wait for his mother to be better, and he will slowly fight with his parents.
"When you graduate, you can do the work you want to do, or you can go to the girl you like. This dad supports you, but you don't want to be an abnormal person." He is still trying to persuade He Jin. Return to the right path.
He Jin raised his hand and covered his face, and said painfully: "Dad, don't say it."
He was reluctant to go to Qin, and he had dinner at the Qin dynasty half a month ago. Qin also asked him not to hurt Qin Xin's heart... Why is the difference in tolerance between family and family so big?
Back to the long-lost home, He Jin has a feeling of being separated from the world. The family is still full of familiar taste, but it is less warm and more dead. The restaurant table is filled with some torn labels. He Jin glanced at it, and there were actually ten kinds!
Hearing the sound, a man came out of the bedroom, He Jin’s little sister, and she whispered with delight, “How come you come back so soon!”
He Jin looked in the direction of the bedroom: "Well, Xiao Yan, Mom?"
Xiao Yan looked at He Father, and He Father nodded: "I told him all."
Xiao Yan pointed at his brain, and some gods said, "Sleep, eat that medicine, sleepiness, and awake during the day."
He father put down the things and sighed, saying: "It’s better to fall asleep than to wake up to death."
Xiao Yan looks at He Jin: "Jin Jin, your mother is not easy, you have to understand her."
He Jin: "..."
He father waved his hand and said to He Jinxiao: "Sit in the evening car, in the middle of the night, I will sleep first. What will happen tomorrow, I will squeeze with He Jin, you will still accompany your sister."
He Jin was lying in bed, and he couldn't sleep. Xiao Yan said the **** look and tone, just like saying a "neuropathy", he really didn't expect it to be so serious.
He quickly checked the Internet and did not know that his understanding of "depression" was too shallow.
Depression is not "thinking", nor "emotional", nor "pessimistic loss" or "feeling", but changes in brain function. It is the "serotonin" in the brain responsible for regulating substances such as emotion, vitality and sleep. The concentrations of substances such as norepinephrine and dopamine have changed. In short, the function of managing emotions has broken down.
If you are sick, you should take medicine. If you take the medicine, it will appear normal. Otherwise, the patient will be in a "dark and desperate" mood for a long time. There is no interest in this. This is the most fundamental cause of suicide tendency. He Jin’s mood is The child is heavy.
The next day, He Jin was awakened by a gentle touch. During the day, he thought he was in the rented house of a city, and he comforted his hand, but he quickly reacted and he went home! Opening his eyes, He Jin saw a dull face, his mother.
"Mom..." He Jin quickly sat up, called her, and looked incredulously at the wrinkles on her face, and the white hair. He remembered that he had not left when he left. Obviously, She is a lot older, although only half a year, but He Jin does not know how much psychological pressure she has suffered.
Suddenly, He Jin felt very guilty, very self-blaming, and the heart was hurting. He grabbed the quilt and whispered: "Mom, sorry, I am wrong."
The woman's mouth looked at him carefully and touched his face: "It's good to come back, come back, I won't see you in half a year, Mom wants to die, Mom has something wrong, Mom apologizes to you."
He Jin’s eyes are sore, this is the understanding and respect he wants, and the peaceful coexistence he wants. He grabs his mother’s hand and apologizes: “You don’t touch, I am, I am fine.”
The woman still stared at him and asked him the details of the past six months. He Jin was guilty. He did not dare to premise himself and Qin Hao in his mother's face. He said that he had lived in his classmates for a few days after leaving home. Later, when I started school, I also lied that I had been working outside for half a year. The woman distressedly shed tears and repeatedly apologized to him, saying that he had suffered.
He Jin didn't know how to lie, just thinking that he could lie once, and, for the time being, he didn't see that his mother had something different from ordinary people. He Jin was quite optimistic, and his dad was very happy to find He Jin back. Role, but his optimism did not last long, and soon witnessed a **** "sickness".
It was lunch at noon. He Jin mentioned his experience of summer internship work, and carefully raised his intention to stay in a city after graduation. His mother squinted for a moment, put the dishes on, and began to say "No," her speed is very fast. Like every request to dismiss He Jin in the past, it is impossible to insert words. Later, she stared at one place with no eyes, as if she was talking to herself. In the end, she began to cry, crying and said: "How can you do this to me, how can you be so guilty, so filthy! I am your mother! I am your mother! If you leave me! What do you mean when I am alive? I am better to die!"
He Jin did not know how to deal with this situation, but only committed to "I don't go", "I will come back", "Mom don't cry," and persuaded for a long time, his mother is still alive. The appearance of love, and finally his father sneered to feed the medicine, only slowly calm down.
He Jin realized that he was too naive and too idealistic.
Because he still has to go to school, he can't go without it. After He Jin and his mother apparently resolve the contradiction, they took the high-speed train on the return journey and promised to make a video call once a week to report the details of life.
Everything seems to have returned to the past.
After returning home, He Jin felt that he was infected, and he was completely depressed. He was pessimistic. He felt that in this situation, he and Qin Yu’s future were flawed.
On the day of going back to school, he didn’t know what happened. He didn’t even go to rent a house with Qin Lan, and went back to the dormitory for one night.
Hou Dongyan asked him how things were handled. He Jindao: "It’s worse than I thought." He didn't tell Qin that his mother had depression, but told Hou Dongyan, "With a lot of medicine to eat, but I checked, that The side effects of the drug are quite big, and eating too much is not good for the body. Now I rely on my dad to be alone."
Hou Dongyan asked: "What do you do with Qin Lan?"
He Jin should be firm, but at this moment, he hesitated: "I don't know..."
Hou Dongyan: "Hey, as I said, you have to play in the game, and there are several pairs of developmental reality that can be used to make a positive result. It is too unreliable."
Yes, He Jin thought so before. Two men, the reality is so difficult, how can it go? However, after being with Qin Lan, he was unconsciously infected by the enthusiasm and love of the other party. He liked the feeling of being surrounded by positive energy and self-confidence when he was with Qin.
"I read a book and said that those loves and loves are all dopamine. For both men and women, the love period must be faint. When you are at that stage, calm down and you will find that there is no one. Who can't leave."
Hou Dongyan just stood in the perspective of He Jin and objectively analyzed how to do it for him, but did not expect that his own careless words had a huge impact on He Jin - yeah, from the waiting of that eight years,