The Lycan king-Chapter 137

*Leonora*

I placed Xander in his crib. I wanted to give Jax and I some space to just cuddle and have a bit of moment to ourselves. Xander was also a sleeper. He spent a lot of his time sleeping and I was a bit grateful for it.

I saw how disassociated he was after the trial. I knew a lot of thoughts were running through his mind. He was trying to be happy and spend time with us but I knew he was out of it. I just wanted to do something nice for him.

I crawled into bed beside Jax who was staring at the ceiling. "Baby." I called and he looked down at me. "How are you?"

"Please, I need you to kiss me." He said as I leaned up and kissed him. It had been so long since we had been intimate. I had been waiting for when I would be ready and now just felt like the right time.

He immediately pulled me up and over him, my legs on either side of him. I pulled away and kissed his neck earning a groan from him.

"I’m not really in the mood for sex." He muttered and I pulled away. "I just need you to be the same Leonora I’ve known since forever. I don’t want you to ever change. I love you the way you are."

"And I don’t want you to change either." I answered as I laid on his chest. "I’m so sorry for everything that happened. I wish you hadn’t gone through something like that." I said as I listened to the beat of his heart. It sounded like music to my ears.

There was so much I could say to him. So much I say to ease his aching heart but nothing was forthcoming.

"I want to have a lot of kids. I want to try new things. I want to us to have a wonderful family. I want to never look back and think of Claire and Luke again." He announced and I nodded. I wanted the same things for us. I wanted us to start afresh and be new. I didn’t want Claire and Luke to be dangling over us.

"Every little thing will be alright." I assured him and I closed my eyes, slowly falling asleep.

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I woke up the next morning to Jax pacing around the room. The sound made it hard for me to fall asleep. I sat up and rubbed my eyes, trying to rid myself from any sleepiness I felt.

"Jax." I called but he kept pacing, not noticing me as I called out for him. "Baby." I called again and Jax halted. The look on his face told me all that I needed to know. I gestured for him to come to the bed and he walked towards me.

"Did I wake you?" He asked me and I nodded. "You didn’t have any night mare last night. I’m so happy." He said and I could tell that he was lying to me. Yes he was happy that I didn’t have any nightmare but he wasn’t actually happy. I didn’t know if there was a meltdown coming.

"Baby." He said as he climbed onto me and I fell back on the bed. "I want to kiss you so bad and make love to you."

"I’m all ours baby." My voice barely came out as a whisper. He got off me and laid down beside me. "What’s wrong?"

"I just want to admire you. You’ve just been the best for me." He said and I smiled. We laid down on our sides just looking at each other. It felt a bit nice. He cupped my cheek and I moved closer to him, lifting my thigh over his waist. "I think you want me just as much as I do." He teased and I smiled sheepishly. His hand cupped my thigh and slowly lifted my dress above my hips. "I love when you wear this dress to sleep. It’s like a fuck me sign."

"Maybe that’s why I wore it. So that you could take it off me." I teased even further. I held his hand and guided in between my legs. I moved it slowly and he smiled. "Please." I begged and he still didn’t take control. "Please, please do something."

"I’ll only do it if you beg me." He said and I frowned, taking his hands off me.

"Don’t worry. I’ll go and take a cold shower." I said as I tried to take my leg off him but he held me back.

"I just wanted to play with you." He said and I poured. "Don’t pout. I’m going to do everything you want me to do." He said and I smiled as his hands slowly went in between my legs. This time, he slipped a finger into me causing me to gasp. He held a hand over my mouth as he slowly fingered me.

I closed my eyes, enjoying the euphoric feeling when Xander’s cries flooded the room. "Fuck!" Jax groaned as he slipped his fingers out of me.

"Oh my goddess. When can we catch a break?" I asked as I slowly got out of bed. I made my way over to his crib and picked him up. A smell filled my nose and I scrunched my nose. "He has a dirty diaper!" I almost screamed as I carried him over to the changing table.

I started taking off his clothes when I felt an arm around my waist. "My wife, the mother of my son."

"My husband, the best person to help Xander with his dirty diaper." I joked as I took off his clothes and stepped away. Jax rolled his eyes and took off his diaper, folding it and throwing it in the thrash can.

"My wife, the best person to run away from a dirty diaper." He joked as he wiped Xander clean and picked him up. "My family. I love the both of you so much."