Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 171: Lord Hwang... Jaehyun?

Jaehyun’s POV

"It is time you take your place as Lord of the pack" father says like it is something I should look forward to, something to be happy about.

But the harmless words hit me like a blow to the abdomen.

Lord? Of the pack?

I fold my fist on my knees and stay frozen with my back straight, even as my mind is spiraling out of control like there’s a fucking hurricane let loose inside my head.

No.

No fucking way, I will do anything but that.

I would rather lead a war, stay at the front and paint my body with the blood of our enemies, hell, I would rather take a grenade in my hand and walk into the enemy’s territory with nothing but pure love for my pack than to lead the pack.

I’m not made for that; I’m not cut out for that.

"You have grown with this pack, and it’s not just because you are my son but because you have proven yourself to be in the best position" my father continues.

I know he is deliberately refusing to give me the chance to speak, he listens to me but I know right now, he’s trying to show me why this is a good idea.

This is shit.

Where the fuck is my mother? Why isn’t he here when I need him the most? When is he coming back home?

"...and you have won every training carried out in this pack unbiased" my father continues, now I really can’t tell if he’s being clueless about how much I don’t want this or if he’s deliberately ignoring me.

Is this intentional?

"Dad" I say once, quietly and calmly.

"The youths of trust you to carry them into a brighter future as lord of the clan" father says and coughs again, lifting a white handkerchief from his pocket to his mouth.

The cough comes out violently and sounds almost raw and painful.

"Father..." I call again; my voice comes out even smaller.

Doesn’t he know that all my life, I looked forward to fucking Taeho to be the one to rule?

Doesn’t he know that? I guess no one did, I let Taeho know everything, let him have everything and I trusted him to be the one to carry the pack.

"Nothing is better than starting the plan for a better future now" father says and puts the handkerchief down.

Future? My future is anything but being the leader.

"So you will have to get a right-hand man as soon as possible, Taeho had proven himself useless and a betrayer, but this pack is still full of other willing men" he says and pauses.

The room is finally quiet, except for the noise coming in from outside; the familial noise that never goes missing in Hwangyeon.

It sounds like the kids are playing soccer, I hear the sound of a ball being kicked and the cheers of children celebrating the goal.

They are happy, safe and at peace because my father is the Lord of this pack, because my father has put his sweat and blood into raising this place.

The sound is the result of what my mother and father built together, in love and in pain.

He never ignored us as his family, he loves my mother deeply forever, but I know there could have been more...maybe I’m just being selfish but fuck it.

I’ve seen the unnecessary worry the men he fights for have given him, I’ve seen a number of rebels over the years and the way he still cares about them.

"Father" I say.

"I’m listening" he says in that gruff voice, he always sounds angry to strangers when he is actually always the first person to reach out if anything goes wrong.

A saint in a world full of dangerous men.

"Father, I can’t do it" I say.

I have always been vocal about my feelings; it is how my mother and father has raised to be...but this is the first time I am vocalizing something like this.

"You can’t do it? Why son?" father asks in a lower tone, and I bow my head.

"I can’t be a leader like you, I can’t carry a pack as well as you do, father...I can’t" I say and his face softens as he looks at me.

He lets out a sigh as his face mellows, "Jaehyun, you are not to be a leader like me. Son, you are you, start your own path" he says and I shake my head in refusal.

"I can’t"

"Do you have any idea how many of the kids look up to you? they respect you and they want you to lead" father says.

I sigh and slump in the seat, I throw my head back and let my eyes stay glued to the ceiling.

The old celling fan is rolling slowly. 𝕗𝕣𝐞𝐞𝘄𝐞𝚋𝚗𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗹.𝚌𝕠𝚖

"You will be a father in no time" he says and I stay like that, "you know the world will question you for the mother of your child, I am getting old and this is my last defense for you" he says.

His voice sounds like there’s a hint of sadness in it.

"I will defend me and my family by myself" I say, still in that position.

He had done well for me, covered me and protected me, now it’s my turn to do it for my own family, to take care of them the same way he has done.

"Think about it son" he says and sighs, then he places his hands on the papers that he had been going through.

Something tells me this conversation is far from over, my father doesn’t start random conversations...he is never a time waster.

"We have to legally set Yujun free" father says.

Fuck.

I guess this is the real reason for this meeting.

"His parents, his clan leader handed him over to the Kangs, now he’s here in an enemy clan and he is pregnant...that will be war unless we find a way to legally set him free" father says grimly.

"Fuck, I didn’t think of that" I say and drag my fingers down my face in frustration.

"The longer we waste time, the more vulnerable and sensitive this becomes" father adds, letting me know just how heavy this is.

"Yujun is a fucking-" I take deep breath to calm myself, I shouldn’t curse in front of my lord even if he’s my father.

"I’m sorry" I apologize and father flicks to wrist to signal, ’go on’.

"Father, Yujun is an adult man"

"Yes he is an adult, but he is also an omega and not just any omega, he belongs to the two leaders of two renowned clan" father points out.

Fucking hell.

My smell sours quickly in the room, spreading like wildfire and father sighs.

"Son, I am actively thinking of a way to handle this without hurting you or him" he says.

"Father, that man means the world to me" I say tiredly.

"I know, son I know but with what is on the line, it’s better we handle this as calmly as we can"

Hwang Jaehyun doesn’t do calm, Hwang Jaehyun doesn’t think twice but I have a child on the way, I can’t just go mad and think it will all get solved...especially with the notorious Kang’s involvement, fuck.

"What legal steps can we take to start sorting this?" I ask, trying for once in my life not to lose my mind.

I am really craving to take the same gun I used on Taeho and ride all the way to the Choi mansion and feed them a taste of their own medicine.

Then after that, I would find that new Kang heir, the bastard that dared to stand between me and Yujun, I will find out what exactly he did to make Yujun that scared of him...then I will punish him accordingly.

Fuck it, fuck legal method, fuck being responsible.

"I know one of the legal ways they won’t refuse is money, Choi Sanwoo will do anything..." dad starts but stops speaking when the room’s door is pushed open.

"If they won’t let us sort this legally, then we take it down to hell and burn it all to crisp" mom says as he walks into the room.

He just returned from work and he looks angry, a look that is rare on him, it’s hard to see my father angry.

"My love, what happened?" father asks.

"It will go to hell anyways; I have just been informed that an unwanted Choi is on my territory" mom says and I shoot to my feet.

"What?" Father asks in surprise.

An unwanted Choi? Is Choi Sanwoo here again?

"My Lord! My lord!" a maid rushes in without knocking on the door.

"The wife of Choi clan’s leader is here...and she’s causing a scene" the maid said and I let out a deep sigh.

Thank goodness it’s the wife, I am so sure Sanwoo would not escape my bullet today but still.

She picked the wrongest day to visit my territory.