Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl)-Chapter 210: Falling off

Yujun’s POV

It’s the same dream over and over again.

I don’t know how long I’ve been here, but I’ve been climbing a mountain for a long time hardly making any progress, and it terrifies me.

It’s different this time, I make it up and stand on the top of it, breathing hard to catch my breath with how thin the air is up here.

I expect to wake up finally, but I don’t, I remain...

I’m standing at the top of the mountain in flowy white clothes, and someone keeps tugging on my clothes from below, I want to kick and make the person let go, the wind is too strong for someone else to hold on to me like this.

We’ll both fall...

"Let me go" I gasp and shake my leg, but the person refuses to let go.

"Junnah..." the voice says desperately and I look down, it’s Jaehyun...what is he doing there?

"Jaehyun" I call for him and bend forward to pull him up, but as I try to pull, something else keeps dragging him a way from me.

"Jaehyun...please hold on for me, I’ll pull you up" I say breathlessly and hold on to him with two hands but he don’t move upwards, I grit my teeth and tug harder but still...no progress, "it’s okay, I’ve got you" I say through my teeth as I exert more strength.

"Junnah" he calls my name, and I tighten my grip on him, desperate to have him up again.

"Just...Just let go" he gasps as the cold wind blasts in our direction, throwing his body side to side against the jagged walls of the mountain, and the alpha grunts as blood spills out of his mouth.

"It’s too hard to be us...isn’t it?" he asks and tears drop from my eyes, "I just want to be with you" I say tiredly.

We’ve never had a break; we’ve only ever had to fight for our lives...when will it stop?

"You just have to let go...okay baby? Just let go and it’ll be alright" he says as he slips out of my hand, "if you fall, I will jump!" I scream at him.

"And then what? What happens to Haeri? Don’t take life out of our baby’s hands, she still has to meet her aunts and her grandparents" he says and fall away from me.

"No..." I whisper.

My heart stops working for a few seconds as the alpha falls to the land, body being pierced by a hundred sharp rocks, my mouth hangs open in a silent scream with how he looks.

Dead.

Alpha is dead.

I come to consciousness, slowly I open my eyes, and Kang Chan is looking down at me.

My first attempt to speak ends in a broken sob, I turn my body to the side and squeeze my eyes shut, the pain is ripping me apart in ways I didn’t know existed.

"Jaehyun..." I cry his name, snot running down my face and over my lips as I cry.

Squeezing my eyes shut doesn’t wipe out the image of the alpha’s mangled body lying on the rocks, my screams doesn’t cover up the emptiness and silence of our bond, he’s dead.

He’s really dead.

I want to strangle Chan, make him leave with Jaehyun but my arms are weak, I can’t fight anyone right now.

My heart feels too raw, like one big wound, like it will never be able to beat properly again.

"Jaehyun" I say one more time and wrap my arms around myself, holding on to the only one I will ever be able to stand for again, my daughter...our daughter.

"I know how it feels to lose a mate" he says softly and comes to sit in front of me like he wasn’t the one that took him from me,

"She was pregnant too and lost our pup because...it hurt to see her go after that experience"

"You killed her" I say through my sobs, just like you killed Jaehyun, I want to add but the lump in my throat is restricting me and my head is pounding.

"I can make you forget" he says and I hiss at him, not wanting him to touch me, "I can put you to ease, make everything easy for you, you don’t have to hurt...your pup needs the stability" he says and I shut my eyes.

Should I?

Should I let him make me forget?

The silence of my omega is suffocating, and I just want to find away to give my pup safety...won’t I be failing Jaehyun if I can’t protect Haeri properly?

I sniffle and press my face into the pillow.

"Get out" I say and Chan doesn’t move at first, "please...just get out" I say and he nods once before leaving the room with his jaws and fists clenched, maybe upset that I am not bending to his wishes.

I sit up and wipe my eyes with the back of my hand.

I need to find a way out of here, go back home to Hwangyeon and to the family we left behind, I need to get in touch with everyone.

My legs are unstable as I go to the window and look out of it, mapping out the positions of the guards, I will not be here as a slave to his madness.

He can’t take my mate and my life away from me, I refuse to be that weak, I refuse even though I am hurting too much to think straight.

I step out of the room and find a calendar on the wall that shows the date...we are two days after my birthday...I don’t even remember anything from my birthday.

How long was I out?

Walking with my hands on the wall and my belly feeling bigger than it has ever felt, I make my way down the stairs and find Chan in front of the tv, his hands are behind his back and the remote in his hand.

My wolf howls at the image on the screen.

It’s my Jaehyun.

"The heir of Hwang empire was found dead by hikers and he is going to be buried tomorrow" the news anchor says, and I fall to my knees...I can’t escape it can I?