[BL] Debut in Interstellar After Retiring as Grim Reaper-Chapter 249 - 248: Saint

Chapter 248: Saint

"Why do you like the stage?"

Qin An was stunned by the sudden change of topic. He looked at the man but He Li wasn’t looking at him anymore.

However he also didn’t mind answering the question anyway. He paused for a second and he remembered some conversations he had with the man.

"You told me that being a human means understanding and experiencing complex emotions. Being a human also means having different reasons to live," he started talking. "I think you’re right."

Qin An pulled a chair and took a seat and he also looked outside the large window. "The stage made me feel like it."

A flash of tenderness flashed on his eyes and his brows ease softly. After performing on stage, Qin An gradually felt a pleasant comfort. He remembered how He Yan and others described how they love being on stage because it gives them an indescribable freedom and warmth that makes them feel alive.

At first, that was such a feeling that he felt too hard to empathize with. He never chose this path in the first place and just considered something that he entered due to his circumstances back then. After that, all he thought was that this was just merely an act of responsibility to do everything right in the competition. Thus he worked hard to understand and learn what he needed to do to fit in.

But that was it.

Even if he begins to feel different kinds of emotions for the various concepts and themes that he must learn, he just thought that it’ll be his perfect way to understand how to be a human.

He put this competition as something like a ’school’ to learn how to be a complete human.

Until that live broadcast where he was able to meet his ’fans’. That wasn’t even long and they haven’t talked about anything because the management just let the fans convey their message for them at such a short time.

He didn’t even really know them at all.

Yet that was the first time he received such affection that’s so different from what he saw.

Qin An listened to their nagging about his health, the concern and the inspiring messages they talked about, just to boost him— to fight on this stage.

He felt overwhelmed but at the same time gratefulness also awakened inside him. It was different from the ’affection’ that he received when people found out his identity as a grim reaper. They gave love not because they are grateful and admired his powers but they are just giving him something too pure and heartfelt love because he exists.

Qin An felt it.

They felt happy just by a glimpse of him on stage shining brightly. Thus he also wanted to repay them. Not because he felt indebted but because he feels thankful too.

For making him feel like he’s capable of being a human and someone who can be loved too by simple means.

After that, he also began loving the stage where he can perfectly reciprocate their love for him. To Qin An, only on stage is when he can directly feel the ’love that he never felt from others. The unconditional support that assures him that there’s always someone behind him, not because he’s a grim reaper but just him, Qin An.

Thus he wanted to work harder and stay on the stage so he could continue feeling it.

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After other business in the private laboratory, Qin An was finally allowed to go back to the training building.

It’s just that he never expected that something— or rather someone would wait for him inside.

.... 𝚏𝐫𝚎𝗲𝕨𝐞𝐛𝕟𝚘𝐯𝚎𝗹.𝕔𝐨𝗺

"Nan Xing?" Qin An looked down at the little girl in front of him. It was Nan Moyi’s little sister.

He found out that the company let the parents or relatives come again to visit after the war ended to inform the trainees. Since that matter was too important, it was allowed and to fully stabilize their emotions.

And just like the usual, only him, Gu Yijin and Han Suwen didn’t have anyone. It’s just that this time, Han Suwen’s expression didn’t look gloomy while Gu Yijin stayed the same and someone actually visited him— Nan Xing.

"Xiaoxing wanted to visit you. I’m sorry, Anan," Nan Moyi apologized to the young man who had just come back from somewhere unknown. They had already begun to use him going out back and forth to the training building. Although they don’t know the exact reason, they had begun speculating that it concerns his background and identity. After all, among them only the yung man seems too private about himself.

Aside from the fact that he was an orphan and they heard about him recently being adopted by some family, they don’t know anything else from his past. Even after now, the young man seems not to have any intention of telling them something, not that he was obliged to though.

"Elder brother..." Nan Moyi came back to his senses when he felt a small tug on his sleeves. He gently patted Nan Xing’s head before smiling again at Qin An.

"Anan, Xiaoxing wanted to say something to you," he said. They looked down at the little girl and saw him hiding half of her body behind Nan Moyi’s legs while her upper body looked very eager to come close to the young man ahead.

Something to say? Qin An was suddenly confused and wanted to ask something when he happened to meet the little girl’s eyes. He was stunned.

Unlike the past when he saw her with innocent and carefree eyes, hers still carried the same but something was slightly different.

A strange flash of white runes were seen circling around the little girl’s eyes for a quick seconds that he even thought it was just an illusion.

But when Nan Xing took a step closer to him and raised her hand to touch his fingertips, that’s when he finally noticed something was wrong with her.

No, it wasn’t even something wrong but rather something that even he didn’t expect to appear.

Inside Nan Xing’s body, Qin An could faintly feel a special energy. Not from someone like Shen Lou and others but an energy that only came from someone that is too rare even in his past life— a Saint.

What is a Saint? They are the rarest beings who possessed an energy that could revive the spiritual energy. They are the one who can purify and relieve black energy in the world, no matter how dark and dangerous it is.

That is why it is too rare to be true and even sometimes only considered as myth. They are too pure and something that must be protected at all cost. What’s more, Saints have a fragile lifetime. Their bodies are inherited weaker and won’t really live long like them.

Thus they are too precious because only when they exist can the spiritual energy that gave the balance to the life and death boundary can stay.

For Saints, if one dies, one will immediately be born as a new one to continue the legacy and be able to sustain the energy for such an infinite time. In the past, to protect the Saints, powerful deities would always find any way to protect them at all cost. It’s just that because of their natural weakness, inevitable deaths always come and they could only wait for the next birth and try their best to find it right away to protect again.

At first, Qin An wasn’t really hoping for a saint to appear in this world. The spiritual energy is too few and they must investigate further to find ways to maintain this. The world is too big to shoulder the endless resentment. It may even take years and years before they could fully unleash Shen Lou and other’s abilities because of the lack of resources, information and most importantly, the spiritual energy.

For now, only the old peach blossom was their sole core. It was even in the dangerous phase because he could see it slowly withering. If things would really go worse, this world might fall into a dire state.

Unexpectedly who would have thought that a Saint would suddenly appear and even inside the body of such a young girl?

"Brother..."

Qin An came back to his senses when he heard the girl calling for him softly.

"B-Brother, give..." probably because of nervousness and shyness, the girl stammered and quickly put something on his hand before backing away again.

Qin An opened his hand and was stunned.

On his palm lies a necklace with a ginkgo leaf shaped made of an exquisite jade. It was kinda small but the clear and elegance of the pendant exuded with a faint holiness that was difficult to ignore. Anyone who lays an eye on it knows that such a necklace means importance.

But it was not because of the beauty of the necklace that left him bewildered, rather it was Qin An knew something about it.

It was a necklace that symbolizes the birth of a Saint.

Which means that Nan Xing is really a Saint, the first Saint born in this world.

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