Even If I'm Reborn as a Cute Dragon Girl, I Will Still Make a Harem-Chapter 118Book 6: : Diary

I hated her.

From the moment Gerald told me about this plan and promised me the Illusory Dream, I had already hated her.

Because she was a Dragon Eater.

Even if her soul was innocent, even if she had never taken part in the massacre that destroyed the dragon race, I still hated her deeply.

So deeply that it made me nauseous. If the plan had not required it, I would never have taken on the role of “mother.”

I was the Dragon Queen. I would never be something as weak as a “mother.”

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The first reincarnation.

When I watched her struggle out of the eggshell, the revulsion was so strong that I almost vomited. Fortunately, that feeling did not last long. She died, having lived only three minutes.

She died by lightning.

Gerald said that this kind of lightning could promote soul fusion, but I thought she could not possibly be stupid enough to keep letting herself get struck.

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The second reincarnation.

Seeing those deep blue eyes identical to my own again made me want to gouge them out, even though she looked so lost, so pitifully endearing.

But this was nothing more than the Dragon Eater’s offspring using deceit. Her soul was indeed that of an ordinary person, but that ordinary soul must have already been tainted by a filthy body.

This time she lived for five minutes, and once again died to lightning and a sharp tongue.

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The fifth reincarnation.

What was wrong with this little runt? She kept referring to herself in that pompous, archaic way the moment she was born, how annoying. She was clearly just a brat, so why was she pretending to be some ancient authority?

No wonder Gerald set the lightning’s trigger condition to that ridiculous self-address.

This time she lived for ten minutes, dying to lightning and that mouth of hers.

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The thirteenth reincarnation.

Akarin said it was called “chuunibyou,” an illness commonly found among human adolescents.

I asked him whether there was medicine to cure it, but his expression turned strange and he hesitated to answer.

Could it be that this illness was incurable?

This time she lived for half an hour, and still died to lightning.

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The one hundred and seventh reincarnation.

This time she finally learned not to say that damned word anymore. After becoming a little more normal, she actually looked rather cute.

This time she lived for five days and eight hours, and died from soul rejection.

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The five hundred and thirty-seventh reincarnation.

She called me “Mama” for the first time.

How should I put it? The feeling was strange. I could not say exactly what was odd about it, only that it felt as though something had appeared out of nowhere deep within my heart.

Even so, I still hated her and did not respond.

This time she lived for thirteen days and six hours.

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The one thousand and seventeenth reincarnation.

She learned a sentence of dragon language from some other fellows and came back to show it off to me.

I was very disdainful. As a dragon of the dragon race, needing to learn dragon language was utterly disgraceful.

After that, she seemed very dejected. Had I done something wrong?

This time she lived for twenty-nine days and twenty-three hours, just short of a full month.

I had even prepared a small gift, so I felt a little disappointed.

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At some point, I began to look forward to her birth.

From the moment there was movement within the dragon egg, I stayed by its side and waited for a long time.

The patterns on the eggshell were truly beautiful.

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The two thousand five hundred and thirtieth reincarnation.

She complained to me that her clothes did not look good.

I thought so too.

Most giant dragons did not need to wear clothes, and my own garments were not suitable for her. As a result, from the moment she was born until now, she had always been wrapped in animal hides.

This time she lived for two months and five days.

Unfortunately, she did not live long enough for me to learn how to make clothes.

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The three thousand six hundredth reincarnation.

This time, I was finally able to make clothes that satisfied her. Well then, how were they? My skills as a mother were not bad, right?

I made ten thousand pieces at once. She should like them.

This time she lived for five months and twenty-one days.

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The four thousand and fifth reincarnation.

She gave me a gift for the first time. I was so happy!

I was going to preserve the gift forever using time-stasis magic!

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The four thousand nine hundred and ninety-ninth reincarnation.

Gerald asked me about the progress.

Only then did I suddenly remember that I was supposed to hate her!

Regalis, oh Regalis, how could you soften just because she looked cute?

She was the Dragon Eater you hated most. Everything you were experiencing now was nothing more than a game of pretend!

This time she lived for seven months.

She died from soul rejection.

I tried to artificially extend her lifespan, but it had no effect.

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The five thousand four hundred and thirty-first reincarnation.

Those humans! Those humans, how dare they!

How dare they lay hands on my daughter!

This time she lived for exactly one year.

She died from human cruelty, and for that I destroyed that human nation.

But afterward, I did not feel happy, because the carefully prepared banquet had once again lost its main guest.

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The six thousand and fifty-first reincarnation.

She suddenly asked me where her father was.

I felt awkward and did not know how to answer.

I told her she had sprung out of a crack in a rock. She did not believe me and said I was lying to a child.

This time she lived for one year and five months. Before she died, she wanted to go outside to have a look, but I did not allow it.

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The six thousand nine hundred and seventeenth reincarnation.

The facts proved that the decision to never let her go out before she had the ability to protect herself was extremely wise.

This world was dangerous. Children were best off staying obediently at home.

Although Dragon Island was too small for her, at least there were other dragons to keep her company.

She seemed to get along quite well with the other dragons.

This time she lived for one year and nine months.

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The seven thousandth reincarnation.

That Taylor fellow came to complain to me, saying that she bullied them.

I thought that was impossible. My daughter was gentle and adorable. How could she bully others so casually?

Taylor must have been lying to me, so I taught him another lesson.

Sure enough, after that, everyone praised her as a kind and good girl.

This time she lived for two years and three days.

Her second birthday banquet was very joyful. She loved the gifts and was still holding them when she died.

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The seven thousand three hundred and fiftieth reincarnation.

When I was recovering her dead body, I encountered a woman.

That woman thought I was harming her and attacked me recklessly. In her eyes, I seemed to see a kind of familiar emotion.

This time she lived for two years and five months, dying from soul rejection.

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The eight thousand one hundred and ninety-ninth reincarnation.

From some unknown day onward, I began to feel fear.

It was as if she could leave me at any moment.

When I woke from a nightmare, she was by my side, looking at me with concern and tightly holding my hand.

So well-behaved, my good daughter.

This time she lived for two years and nine months.

The three-year threshold was drawing closer and closer.

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The eight thousand five hundred and sixty-second reincarnation.

That woman had still not given up.

I spared her once again and did not kill her.

Because killing her would make my good daughter sad.

Even if she would not retain memories of the previous cycle.

This time she lived for two years, ten months, and five days.

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The eight thousand nine hundredth reincarnation.

I decided to save her.

No matter the cost.

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The eight thousand nine hundred and ninety-second reincarnation.

Gerald asked again, because the plan was nearing completion.

But she was my daughter. No one could take her away from my side. No one could!

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The eight thousand nine hundred and ninety-eighth reincarnation.

A slumbering deity drifted to the outer edge of the world.

I felt that the opportunity had come.

I deliberately guided Lilith into the deity’s dream. The Dragon Eater would lure her into using her abilities there.

As long as those beings of the Great World were not blind, they should notice it.

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The eight thousand nine hundred and ninety-ninth reincarnation.

This might be the last time I would ever see her be born.

I truly wanted time to remain frozen at this very moment.

As I looked into her bewildered eyes, my heart ached until it nearly shattered.

But you must smile as you see her off, Regalis.

Because you were no longer merely the Dragon Queen.

You were also a mother.