The Forgotten Princess Rose-Chapter 277

"I can offer you advice you may not get from Zayne about hosting a lunch for ladies. I have hosted many parties in my time and they went well. They used to be what ladies looked forward to most and now that has been passed to Yvonne. If the queen were to host a party outside of the palace, would you go?" Catherine asked.

"I will if Zayne thinks it is safe. I know it might seem that I am listening to all that he says but he is the one who understands the dangers here. I don’t have any idea what I am up against so I will follow what he says. I don’t want to upset Yvonne if I ever turn down an invitation," Rose said, worried about how Yvonne would take it.

"Oh, we are all so used to Zayne staying out of the palace unless he is needed to speak to Gage so it will not be surprising to not see you there. I didn’t see it at first but he made a fine choice to keep you out of the palace. There is a pressure that gets to you. I managed to overcome it but everyone is not the same," said Catherine.

"Do you still live in the palace? I have been meaning to ask where you travel from," Rose said, curious about Catherine’s life. What did Catherine do now she was no longer queen?

"The palace will always be my home and most of my things are there but I have a home right in the middle of the path to the palace and to Zayne’s estate. I stay in the palace when Zayne is away but stay at the other home when he is back. I want to be close to all my children. Forgive me if I show up too much," Catherine said as she knew she would become a bother. freewebnøvel.coɱ

"I do not mind your visits but I cannot say the same for Zayne. When you come around, I feel like my mother is near. If there is ever a time when you are bored or tired of the palace, you should come to us. We can find something fun to do. With Paige as well," Rose said, not wanting the princess to feel excluded.

"That is kind of you. Paige might be a tad bit busy since her search for a husband has increased. She must wed soon. She has waited a bit too long and now there are questions arising about it. Many are waiting for news of the next royal baby. Don’t worry, they are too afraid of Zayne to speak of him having a child," Catherine said to comfort Rose.

Rose looked out the carriage window at the people walking by. "Are children that important? Is everyone ready to bring a child into this world?"

"We’re hardly ever ready and we seek to have a child because it is what we have been told is right. Our husbands need their heirs. I have long gotten tired of hearing it. I am just a woman whose children are too old to be around her at all times so I am ready for grands," Catherine replied.

Catherine noticed Rose had more to ask. "It is perfectly fine if you want to wait. I was confused at first but knowing what I know now, I think it is fine for you to wait. Don’t have a baby to please others but I must warn you to be careful of the act of making a baby if you are not ready. Do you have something to drink to stop it?"

"I do not and I don’t think I will ever take something. This is embarrassing to speak about with you,’ Rose said, trying not to meet Catherine’s eyes. "I am not trying for a child but if it happens then I believe it is meant to be. I don’t want to hurt anyone."

"It is a fine choice. Over the years the methods to prevent us from giving birth have either become too harsh or the concoctions are downright disgusting. I was never allowed to have any as I could not get rid of a royal baby but I tasted a bit recently. No one will worry about me not having a child now," Catherine laughed.

It wasn’t like she had a partner for it to ever happen.

Catherine continued, "Some of the methods to help us have a child can be just as bad. I am grateful those ways are dying out and they are leaving it for the husband and wife to do it naturally. The world can be cruel to those women unfortunate to never have a child. We are always the problems, not our husbands."

"If I wanted to have a child with Zayne but I could not, would the king or anyone try to have another woman replace me as Zayne’s wife? I have been speaking to Krystle about what happens to ladies in my position," Rose said, disliking the tales she heard.

"Gage knows better. At least I hope but if he didn’t, Zayne would not listen to anyone’s request. It is not like any of us ever thought he would settle down to have a family."

"I see. What is it like to be a mother? I’m afraid I won’t know how to be a good mother. I spent so many years away from my own mother and there are things from my past I have yet to forget. Being a mother scares me because I don’t know if I have that love in me," Rose revealed.

"It is something many of us think about. We think we will be ready but as that time narrows down there are concerns about how we will be to our child. I had a palace full of servants to help me yet I still worried about how I would be to Zeek. It is like everything else in this life. You learn," Catherine described it as best as she could.

Catherine couldn’t lie and paint the picture that it was all perfect when having children.

"I knew I wasn’t the most perfect mother but my children turned out fine. I promise you that Gage is normally better than how he is now. Speak to your fears of becoming a mother to Zayne. I’m sure there was something he wanted to get off his chest and confide in you. Men can be fearful of fatherhood as well but they aren’t so quick to speak about it."

Catherine couldn’t help wondering if Rose had some news to share but then again the days since Rose wed would be too soon to know about a baby.

Catherine thought Rose sharing her fears to be a start about the couple possibly having children one day. She awaited seeing the pair being the best parents they could possibly be. Catherine was almost tempted to tell Rose that she noticed Zayne was ready but held back since Rose wasn’t ready.

The carriage door was opened by Krystle who returned with the pastries for Rose and Catherine.

Catherine clapped her hands to get the coachman and guards’ attention. "It is time we moved on from here."